When will you run out of passion?

4days from home

2012-01-11T15:37:00.001+07:00

You know, just Gaby lazing her ass off in the middle of the class with the Bridget Jones' Diary.

Random picture of a ring I got.

Went to douliu last week! It was very cold.

p.s. I'm going home in a few days. Yay!

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My ideal kind of guy.

2012-01-03T00:58:00.001+07:00

A guy who reads.
A guy who makes effort to fight for me.
A guy who is not skinny, wears glasses and healthy.
A guy who does not smoke.
A guy who reads.
A guy who loves his parents more than he loves me.
A guy who can make smart jokes with me.
A guy who can debate intelligently.
A guy who can make me smile without trying.
A guy who reads.
A guy who can make my heart skips a beat everytime i see his name.
A guy who thinks positively.
A guy who does not think badly of people.
A guy who is smart.
A guy who reads.
A guy who appreciates music and art.
A guy who supports feminism.
A guy who does not admire me like a queen.
A guy who does not do everything only for me.
A guy who reads.
A guy who drives.
A guy who kisses me when i least expect it.
A guy who holds my hands.
A guy who has close and reliable friends.
A guy whose heart is kind.
A guy who does not believe that religion is the solution to all problems.
A guy who does not need to try to be all of the above, for he already is.
A guy who can read a situation and react intelligently.
A guy who loves himself.
A guy who has self-confidence.
A guy who knows how to please a woman.
A guy who reads.
A guy who I can call life-partner, not only a husband.
A guy like that would make me the luckiest girl in the world.
Well, it's just an ideal.

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Just a December 29

2011-12-29T08:45:00.001+07:00

I have been very tired these days. I had counted how many assignments for the last 2 weeks of school..and it turned out I had 15 assignments. The presentations, reports, reflections, and translations.. I feel like dying. Last night, I just did 3 of them. And I only have less than a week for all the presentations. But in my busy days, I happen to receive happiness,too.

These are the chocolates I receive from my Malaysian friend. She is studying communication in University of Portsmouth in England. She's coming to Taiwan for Christmas and new year.

And this is a picture of my classroom. It does look like a normal high school classroom,not university's.

And this is a tree made of metal in Kaohsiung. I went there for a christmas party.. Then I took a picture!

Look at this cute lizard on my cream puff.

Good morning and have a nice day!

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Domo for 2012

2011-12-28T11:35:00.001+07:00

I've been keeping this domo diary since summer..and I'm finally using it!!happy max n__n
It's a domo diary filled with cute doodles of domo and a fur cover..love it!
I'm going to write my new year resolution there and keep it with me everywhere i go :) on the left is my vacuum flask.. Just had it like a month ago. Loving the green tea colour :)

Wish you guys have a lovely day :)

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Hazelnut Latte

2011-12-27T13:34:00.001+07:00

It's been cold today! I hope you keep yourselves warm,lovelies!

Yesterday I had an international organisation discussion class and teacher treated us coffee :) I had hazelnut latte with no sugar. It was delicious :)

I also got a small bean cake (talk about healthy lifestyle!) From a friend. She's a Taiwanese :)

Although I don't really fancy the teacher since he was very annoying..and he always talks to others about how bad my chinese is (in taiwanese)-too bad I understand,sir..- because of a good coffee, I had a good time on class.

This week is new year's eve..and I'm going to go to Yunlin to celebrate :) my friend invites me. What are you going to do on new year's eve? Have you written your new year's resolution? I'm going to write one soon. I hope you have a wonderful week.

Much love!!

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Another internship.

2011-11-09T19:00:00.001+07:00

After three days of midterm exams, I feel like dying....... not yet, one said. In the middle of my midterm exam I am going to another internship in Kaohsiung Food Show 2011.

One of a leading fruit-jam retailer in Indonesia hired me to be their interpreter. I am kind of nervous.. What if the spectators are important person? I am grateful that I had an internship at APEC because it helped me improve my formal Chinese speaking. But still I am... nervous lol I'm preparing everything right now, wish everything would go well tomorrow!

<3

nine random webcam pictures spam lol.

2011-11-05T00:32:00.000+07:00

I was bored and all and I decided to post my webcam pictures :)

the lighting went bad and all but I still like this one.

acting witty with a new pair of glasses, I feel retarded now lol

smirkkk.

New coat, so comfy :)

Yesterday

Last winter, lol see how round my face was.

Just realized that my face is different from last year's. Supposed to be a good thing.

Will post another one after I finished my midterm!

Another day with the rain

2011-10-15T00:01:00.000+07:00

Greetings, lovelies. So, tomorrow I will go for my first internship ever (if teaching kids and playing piano in restaurants do not count) as a service for the APEC 42nd EWG Meeting in Kaohsiung Taiwan.

It takes place in Ambassador Hotel

It looks so gorgeous and it is a five star hotel so I expect good food 科科

I will be working along with my 4 classmates and my senior, and about 6 graduate students. One of those rare moments in which I feel little and small yet smart enough to work with them :')

But, today, I went to the swimming pool (swimming class, yea) and it rained on my way back. I did not take the bus or anything because I had my bicycle with me. In short, I got wet and sick. After I saw the dormitory I faced another disappointment because the student's canteen was closed. It was only 5pm wth. And so I had to think what to eat.. and not to mention it was raining quite hard so I honestly felt like just leave me alone in my bed because I WILL NOT BUDGE. Well thank God my friend helped me to buy a fish salad and a seaweed soup. Later today, my Taiwanese friend suddenly bought me a duck soup. It was bitter but warm and it felt really good. I then took a nap for like hours and I feel good now :) yay. I also had a lot of herbal medicine (like 2 bags of the liquid ones and one pill) and I was sweating like crazy.

I hope I will get better tomorrow!

a one-week chance

2011-10-13T20:42:00.001+07:00

This following Saturday, October 15th, I am going to start working for APEC. For those who don't know what APEC is, it is

Asia-Pacific Economic Cooperation (APEC) is a forum for 21 Pacific Rim countries (styled "member economies") that seeks to promote free trade and economic cooperation throughout the Asia-Pacific region. Established in 1989 in response to the growing interdependence of Asia-Pacific economies and the advent of regional economic blocs (such as the European Union) in other parts of the world, APEC works to raise living standards and education levels through sustainable economic growth and to foster a sense of community and an appreciation of shared interests among Asia-Pacific countries. Members account for approximately 40% of the world's population, approximately 54% of the world's gross domestic product and about 44% of world trade.(taken from Wikipedia)

Apparently, they are holding a meeting in Kaohsiung for a week. I am going to go there and guide them around.

Can't wait!

2011-10-04T22:06:00.000+07:00

So, it's been exactly a month since my last post.

I've started a new semester and it is not the time to play and goof around like I used to on my freshman year. I'm now a sophomore (talk about growing old!). This semester, I took like about 23 credits overall. And I've just started my translation class. It's so hard it's unexplainable. After the class, my head always hurt and I immediately went back to dorm for a nap.

I also started working part-time.. which is nice and tiring. I got to know a lot of people, but yeah, not all of them are good.

Pictures updates when I feel like it.

Oh, and I think I'm gonna start a weightloss tumblr soon :) stay tuned!

2011-09-03T01:30:00.000+07:00

This is the last picture I took personally of my boyfriend. He was on the plane, going back to South Korea.
This is one of the saddest picture I had. I miss him so much. I hate airports :(

The me I know now, will not even survive a day without you.

2011-09-03T01:20:00.000+07:00

I love you so much and I miss you.

2011-08-03T18:49:00.003+07:00

He's going back in less than week and I think I'm gonna lose my sanity anytime soon..

At last, tomorrow.

2011-07-08T21:23:00.001+07:00

After long 5 months, I will see him in less than 24 hours.

And we can do our silly things again :)

I can't even show how happy I am, everything is just like a dream. I can't imagine him standing beside me, hugging me, kissing me. It's been a long time and I will be reminded soon enough.
I am the luckiest girl alive.. No one can object to that :)

Soon.

2011-07-02T19:51:00.000+07:00

It's been so hot here in Kaohsiung! However, there are also a few nice things happened this week.

Wah! Someone dressing as DOMO-kun. Found this on the internet. Unfair! I want that too :(

This big-mouthed monster acts like a cellphone holder this time ;)

Presenting; my iPod.

A reminder I made myself.. gotta be healthier this summer!

A cake from my friend, she just got back from Peng-Hu Island..

Almond cookies and coconut mochi from HK :)

Gotta love Mister Donut's lion!

Looks not appetizing! For me at least.. but my roommate likes it. idk -_-

I've been working part-time these 2 days. I'm so tired I'm left speechless. I still have classes for the whole summer, and it's 6 days left until he's coming. Gotta cheer up! See you, lovelies :)

p.s. I deleted the chatbox since it's full of junk messages. If you have something to tell me, feel free to comment on the post or email me here.

Summer- Day 3

2011-06-29T15:08:00.001+07:00

It's the third day of summer~ How's your summer guys? I've been attending Chinese class and today my behaviour result has come out .___. and I was actually wondering why it went down.. lol anyway today's been quite fun. I woke up at half past 7 to talk to le boyfriend and ask him about his grades -_- and luckily his grades were quite nice <3 he's been so hardworking this semester, he deserves a month full of hugs :D

Today I went to the bookstore to buy a tape dispenser. And then this thing captured my attention;

asdasdljkaldkja so beautiful wtf. It was only NT$ 150 and I was hesitating .____. I ended up buying a very cheap and less beautiful one since I thought it was a waste of money T_T I spent about an hour thinking; to buy or not to buy? And then my purse said no.

It was such a beautiful tape dispenser.. slkdjaldjlasdjl T_T..

Well, it always feels good when..

2011-06-28T17:29:00.002+07:00

1. the summer break has come
2. the ability and permission to sleep longer has come back (-_-)
3. you block people you no longer want in your life
4. to be hurt while you can keep smiling
5. it's just another 10 days to see your loved one

but it doesn't feel good when..

1. you have to get out and walk out of the dorm to buy foods
2. if too lazy to do option #1 then just make instant noodles
3. you know something won't even have a chance to work out
4. you have to attend classes everyday in summer break.. 嗤
5. your sim has a baby by accident (-__-)

You see, summer has come and I started day one with instant noodles and The Sims 3. I still have to attend Chinese class everyday for 2-3 hours and do some voluntary service for an hour every 3 days in my school. Putting the voluntary service aside, I actually like it when I attend Chinese classes. Other than to improve my Chinese, I can keep my minds off unwanted and unpleasant things ;) And keep focusing on homeworks etc.

The last day in the dorm was horrible. Everyone in the dorm has to pack up their things and clean up the room. I started packing my things from Thursday, in which we have to leave at Saturday morning. I have finished packing 95% of my things on Friday night. However, there is a but. But, one of my roommates just started packing things up on Friday night... at 8 o'clock. We (I, and the other roommates) were so angry because we couldn't do the cleaning. And she kept making a fuss.. I was like, "Can you please just pack up quickly so we can start cleaning?" She didn't finish until I think 3 am in the morning, I think.
I was so angry >: (

After a bad thing there should be a good thing riiiiiight. :) On the last day of living in the dorm, my roommate and one of her good friend gave me an early birthday present! They said, because they can't make it to Kaohsiung in July 24th so they gave it earlier instead :)

And also, I got a free electric fan lol from this one friend I was kind of -_- to this one friend because she kept using my duct tape with/without permission and not to mention she even used it until there's no more -__- haha but I guess it's still worth it, I got an electric fan from her ;) Summer in Kaohsiung will be very very hot that an electric fan would be a necessity.

The third good thing is that my new roommates are one of my good friends, she's Indonesian, and the other two were Japanese and Korean. Because this Japanese girl and I attended the same class last semester, I knew her. Although I hadn't seen this Korean girl until she became my roommate, she's very nice and she even gave each of us a curry package because she's leaving to HK for 4 days ;)

By the way, today it was raining hard in Kaohsiung. My skirt and cardigan were drenched. And my sandals even made strange sounds.. lol but I had a good breakfast and lunch today. I'm grateful.

This silly boy will come in 10 days to make me forget all of the bad things :)

This is the beginning of summer, and it's already been so lovely! I can't wait for July 9th to come :D

9 months, 1 week and 5 days

2011-06-26T00:05:00.002+07:00

I have a lot of this blissful and grateful feeling that I find it hard to put into words. I love this guy so much. He is one of the craziest guy I have ever encountered. He is not the most good-looking guy, not the richest guy, not the strongest guy, not that perfect prince charming, but he's perfect for me.

It has been 9 months and almost 2 weeks. It is not a good road, I admit. We are in a long distance relationship and I have listened to people saying that it doesn't work and anything... but, as cliche as it may sound, I know we can make it work.

I can't imagine leaving him. It is amazing how I find out that he's madly in love with me, until now. The guy who doesn't even dare to look at other girls, but me. It's been 9 months and he still manages to make me smile with everything he can.

He's coming to see me in 13 days. I still can't believe that he's willing to work so much for it. Flight tickets, living fees, gifts.. just for the chance to hold me and look at me on the eyes. "If a guy really loves you, he will work for it just to be with you" I now believe in this quote, thanks to someone who proves it ;)

On the days when I feel unwanted and unloved, he would stay online with me just to keep talking to me. He would send messages telling that he loves me. Even everyday, he never fails to tell me that I am beautiful.

There are times when I feel like I don't know him at all. There's still a lot of things I don't know about him, even though we talk everyday. But you know what? It makes me want to know more about him, want to be closer to him. I would look at a picture and think, "Who is this guy?" And I came to an answer; "he's an amazing guy who loves me despite all my flaws".

He's amazing. This is just another post I made when I was reminded of how much I love him.

The final battle

2011-06-20T20:58:00.004+07:00

Today is the first day of the finals week. In total, I have 9 exams. I just finished 2 of them today! Today was written English and persuasive speech. Persuasive speech is one of the hardest kind of speech, so I practised for some time until I finally could speak without looking at the powerpoint or the text lol *proud :D

I woke up today at 6:45 because the test was at 8 am. I got a very loud alarm clock yesterday and I set it up to ring at 7 am, but I got up at 6:45 instead because I was afraid of it to ring -_- such coward. Anyway, I had my breakfast and went off to the exam. The first thing my teacher gave us is listening. I was a bit -_- because it's 8 am in the morning and she gave the hardest thing to concentrate in already. I was :D at the first half because it was simple. But then I had to give up at the last number because the audio file was cut of YOUTUBE.. on the day when the Japan earthquake happened.. and she even spoke with british english.. which means the buzz and the chaos and total unclarity. The only number I couldn't finish. 冏rz

After I finished the test, I went back to my room for a small nap. Nap was sooo heavenly that I woke up at 1 pm. I had to prepare myself for the next exam in 3 pm, so I had to wake up and doll myself. This is probably the last time I'm going to do some make-up until summer break finishes.

I discovered that I was the only one wearing formal suit and everything.. I even wore 9 cm heels, just for the final speech. Everyone was just wearing jeans and shirts.. how could they.. today was 42 degrees in Kaohsiung. OTL ~~though in the end I was praised because I was the only one who was self-conscious enough to wear something formal for the end of the semester~~

I was persuading people to come to Indonesia. Simple, the topic is to persuade. However, if we pick the wrong topic, it can turn to be the most horrible presentation ever. I was quite satisfied with what I did.

Well, as the first day is over, let's have a good night sleep today ;)

p.s. 19 more days :)

I am loved

2011-06-06T13:32:00.003+07:00

After all these years, after people looking down on me, after the abuse I received when I was little, after all those high school years where I was bullied, I realized that I am loved.

It might be my self-insecurity and this self-consciousness that made me always aware of my surroundings everywhere and everytime. Since I was little, I have started become very self-conscious to the level that I didn't even enjoy my childhood. I paid too much attention to everything. I looked over unimportant details. When people didn't even notice that, it bugged me the most.

That kind of attitude brought me to where I am now, to a very self-conscious state. I kept thinking about what ifs and another probabilities and how to make others happy. Well, it was this attitude I inherited from my mother. Trying so hard to make other people happy and finding myself unhappy.

Later on, I realized that we could never make everyone happy. I started to do things my way, and I found that I am happy. However, by doing things my way, I made some certain people unhappy and that killed me, too. And so, I started pulling myself from other people. I don't want to initiate any deeper contacts with anyone. I talk, I go out with them, I play, but I don't do bestfriends. I play the "good friend, will listen, but never gonna be bestfriend" role. Well, I have more enemies than friends anyway.

I don't believe in having friends as in "I'm not going anywhere without you" "You have to accompany me doing ____ or we're not friends anymore" "We're going shopping together so we're friends". Really girls? Really? That is what you call "friends"? Well, my definition of friends is different. That shallow kind of relationship.. is so not me. I better create a deep relationship with someone and be with him/her for a long period of time.

Even though I dislike that shallow kind of friends, I realized that the world is not that bad. There is also a shallow, but sincere kind of friends. Yesterday I was performing at one Indonesian night. My classmates came to see me. I thought only 10 people will come, but it turned out that more than 20 people were coming to see me! I was like, they were actually sincere, and I was very touched. Even some of them stayed so they can come to the stage to congratulate me. It was quite late but they still stayed anyway :)

At that point, I realized that there are actually people who like me even though I am self-conscious, have a lot of insecurities, annoying, etc etc. And especially is my guy, even though we are apart by 1200 miles but he still does his best to come to see me. 33 days to go for a whole month with him! Everytime I get depressed and self-conscious, he waits for me and he never forgot to tell me that I am beautiful, every single day.

I am blessed. I am loved.

About looking down at others

2011-05-05T21:00:00.003+07:00

People love to look down at other people. I believe people love to have that feeling of superiority. There are no people in this world, except Mother Teresa, who would be able not to look down at others. I was looked down at by others, and I hold this belief not to look down on people. But, it turns out that it is not possible.

I met my old self. And I can't help but to look down and get upset. I realized how small, how foolish I was.

This old self of mine is conveyed by one of many people around me.

She's almost like me before.

Her voice is so small that no one can hear her and we have to listen very carefully. She also has this terrible pronunciation and I have to listen to her a lot of times until I can get what she means. She speaks very fast, too. Even if I sit beside her, I still can't get what she says.

Although she's a Taiwanese, she uses Simplified Chinese a lot. She said that it's more convenient. If I were a Taiwanese, I wouldn't even try to learn Simplified Chinese. I'm proud of Taiwan's Traditional Chinese.

She sneezes a lot. And when she does, she never covers her mouth.

She has no close friends. Her friends probably sick of her voice so they avoid her.

But, the most terrible thing of all is, that she hates everybody and she doesn't have the will to try more. She never has the will to do anything first. Put it simply, she's unassertive.

Whenever we get to talk about things other than classes, she always badmouths people. I am sad to hear that, and I can't say anything about that, too. She talks how she hates someone because of any excuses she could make. And she talks as if she asks me to hate that person, too. Just today, she was mad because one of our friends copied the stuffs we wrote on the board. It's true that we could get extra credits for writing them, and I couldn't care less about that. We got our extra credits, and you also got them. If in the future you can't do that subject because you just copied back then, it's your loss. That is what I hold to. It's like, she hates seeing people being happy. Schadenfreude, I think, is the case.

Other than the things I wrote above, she also love to talk about how miserable her life is, how hard all the assignments are, etc etc. Honestly? I'm sick listening to those kinds of words. SHOW me some hardwork. Nothing in this world come easy. You should consider that basically, the harder things and the right thing are the same thing. If you don't want to work hard for something, than what can you achieve in your life?

"Don't you think we have too many assignments?"

"Don't you think she's too full of yourself?"

"Don't you think this presentation is just too much for us?"

I'm tired of these lines. Sounds like, she's not willing to take a step forward. Everything in this life is a burden, I think that's what she holds to.

And then I realize, I was her. No wonder. No one likes to repeat everything over and over again and of course, no one likes to listen over and over again and still doesn't get it what it means.

Since I came to Taiwan, I changed. I speak clearly what I want, because if I don't do so, I don't have anything to do here. And I start to think positive, too. There are times when I break down- of course, I lost friends, too. People come and go. I lost Indonesian friends but I got new friends instead. But everytime I fall, I bounce back harder. A lot of competition and confrontation, but what I want to achieve is personal quality, not stupid rankings.

If anything, I want her to experience hardships and I wish she can change her point of view and stop thinking about negative things in her life.

去義大溜冰~

2011-04-24T19:14:00.004+07:00

大家好~考完試了!!高興嗎?超級高興!!所以~昨天我跟同班同學去義大~溜溜冰冰喔~雖然有點貴(389元要幹嘛)可是我好久沒溜冰好好玩喔!

義大世界真有趣!一直一直走~一直一直拍照!好像外國人啦..(我是)~給妳們看~~

Hello everyone~ Exams are over! Am I happy? Super happy :D So, yesterday I went to E-DA to play ice-skating lol even though it's a bit pricey (NT$ 389 wtf) but it's been a while since I played one!

可愛!!!愛河牛~The E-DA mascot, apparently a hippopotamus

摩天輪 Ferris Wheel~
義大世界歡迎你~E-DA welcomes you~

很像廣告啦真的They should pay me for promotion wth -.-

橋..好漂亮!可是很底 -_- This beautiful bridge was only about 2-3 metres high.
便宜~39元而已~ Beautifuuuuuuuuuuuuuul and cheap! NT$39!
溜冰場!好小..我不滿意!! The rink.. it's so small! I'm not satisfied!
;)
義大皇家處院喔~超漂亮的!!The E-DA Royal Theatre.

Overall, I had fun yesterday! Happy Easter everyone! :)

The Story of the Toilet - 啊盛

2011-04-20T21:40:00.000+07:00

開始念小學那一年，我第一次看見衛生紙，至於正式使用，是在二年級的時候，在這之前，解手後都是用竹片子或黃麻稈一揩了事。大人們的廁所在房間內，用花布簾圍住壁角，裡邊放著馬桶；小孩子們沒有限制，水溝、牆角、甘蔗田以及任何可以蹲下來的地方，統統是廁所。

在學校裡，老師天天交代我們：要穿鞋子，要常洗頭髮，要買衛生紙，不要隨地大小便。我回家跟爸說要買鞋子，爸說沒那麼「好命」；我提起衛生紙的好處，媽說那太浪費，小孩子不懂賺錢的辛苦；我又引用老師的話，說用竹片子揩屁股會生痔瘡，爸生氣了，他說老師一定瘋了，因為他從一歲到二十多歲都是這樣，也沒生過痔瘡；我小聲地說，應該有廁所，祖父說，奇怪，水溝不是很多嗎？最後爸解釋說，衛生紙太薄，容易破，揩不乾淨。這以後，媽准許我用粗草紙，那是大人們用的，不過，我還是寧可用竹片子，粗草紙就帶到學校讓老師檢查，我們班上有一半以上的同學都和我一樣，老師也不再要我們買衛生紙了。

二年級下學期，三姑帶著表弟從臺北來我家玩，吃過中飯，表弟說要上廁所，我帶他到門前的水溝邊，他很驚訝，硬是不肯脫下褲子，是說沒有東西擋著他拉不出來，我帶他到豬舍旁邊，他蹲在地上，不時看著我，然後站起來，說是也拉不出來，我只好走開，隔一陣子就喊：「好了沒有？」表弟苦著臉走出來對我說沒有，我拉起他跑到學校，他急忙衝進廁所，出來之後，滿頭大汗。在回家的路上，他一直問我：為什麼廁所裡沒有水箱子？為什麼有很多很多白白小小的蟲？還有，在水溝裡拉屎，警察為什麼不管？我說警察的兒子也和我們一樣，他就說，回臺北以後要報告老師，叫老師來抓警察，我聽了感到很生氣，跟他說，警察和真平、四郎一樣偉大，不能抓，他不相信，還說校長可以管老師，老師可以管警察，真平和四郎跟總統一樣大，不是跟警察一樣大，我氣極了，不再理他。

三年級放寒假的時候，爸和叔叔們合資蓋了一間廁所。「落成」那天，我們幾個小孩子熱烈地討論誰應該第一個使用，六叔把我們趕開，他說他是高中生，當然是第一。他進去了，一下子又走出來，很不高興的樣子，原來，有人先進去過了，六叔一口咬定是那個泥水匠，他嘀咕著說要找泥水匠算帳，我們建議六叔把他抓來灌屎，像灌香腸一樣，六叔說好。那天晚上，爸和叔叔們在院子裡聊天，聊到這件事，二叔說，新廁所有外來的「黃金」，大吉大利，六叔不同意，他認為新廁所應該由自己人開張，才有新氣象，爸沒有意見。我對爸說，六叔只知道拉屎要爭第一，六叔一巴掌打在我屁股上，媽說該打。我很不甘心，跑去告訴祖父，祖父走出來，把六叔罵了一頓：「你吃飯爭第一，拉屎爭第一，為什麼英文只考了二十──二十──」，我說二十七分，祖父接下去：「二十七分！啊？」五叔在一旁笑，他說這也可以算第一，六叔說，五哥以前數學只考二十四分，烏龜笑鱉沒尾巴，祖父說：「都是尿桶！」

Exhausted

2011-04-15T22:14:00.004+07:00

Greetings, lovelies. It is exactly two days before my midterm exam starts. It is next Monday, but I had a pre-midterm exam last Thursday.

I had to memorize more than 60 organization and governmental structure names in Taiwan. And of course, I had to memorize the Chinese writings and English. Lol, I do not even know what do they mean in English. Would be gladly write what I memorized since last week. I thanked God that my efforts did not go to waste.

Legislative:立法院

Control:監察院

Examination:考試院

Legislator:立法委員

Ministry of Economic Affairs:經濟部

Academia Sinica:中研院

Academia Historica:國史館

Ministry of National Defense, Foreign Affairs, Interior, Transportation, Education, Finance, Justice: 國防部,外交部,內政部,交通部,教育部,財政部,法務部

Mongolian and Tibetan Affairs Commission:蒙藏委員會

Overseas Chinese Affairs Commission:僑務委員會

National Science Council:國科會

Atomic Energy Council: 原子能委員會

Asia-Pacific Economic Cooperation:亞太經濟合作會

UNICEF:United Nations International Children's Emergency Fund: 聯合國國際兒童緊急救援基金會

UNESCO:United Nations Educational, Scientific and Cultural Organization: 聯合國教科文組織

GATT: General Agreement on Tariffs and Trade: 關稅暨貿易總協定

IAEA: International Atomic Energy Agency: 國際原子能總署

ICRC: International Committee of Red Cross: 國際紅十字組織

WHO: World Health Organization: 世界衛生組織

WTO: World Trade Organization: 世界貿易組織

CIS: Commonwealth of Independent States: 獨立國加國協

ICAO: International Civil Aviation Organization: 國際民航組織

I am actually a bit proud of myself :)

I am thankful, too that I spent some time to summarize a very difficult text. I got two extra grade :D~

This semester went really well, I hope I can do my best on midterm exams. Next week, my boy is having his midterm exams too, so good luck for both of us and all those university students out there!

And I somehow dislike girls who extremely photoshopped/photofiltred/edited their pictures and they look fake on their pictures. Let's just not lie about our skin color, our face features, and everything.

From Taiwan with love :)

1:20 AM in Taiwan

2011-04-10T00:20:00.002+07:00

I miss that feeling. That feeling, able to write anything I want. That feeling of having so much to write. That needs to express myself in words.

I am now just an empty shell. I need inspirations in life.. :(

pore pack attempt fail

2011-04-09T10:41:00.006+07:00

Just bought myself this pore pack thing.. I have to attach it to my nose. I didn't expect it'd be so difficult.

FAIL. I loved to see the result though. The paste was so sticky and.. black.. really hard to attach.

This big penguin is from boyfriend -.- sent to me like 4-5 months ago :D

I slept hugging him everyday :)

This is a birthday card given to my roommate.. yesterday was her birthday! Cute much!

I have nothing much to blog these days, just excited for summer to come :)

I don't have any easter break FML. Just a spring break which lasted for 3 days.. 5 days with Saturday and Sunday. Yeah.

And next week would be my midterm. FML.

I'll update again soon ^^

Spring Break

2011-04-05T18:14:00.005+07:00

I got a new camera!!

Finally, I can post my random shots~

I have a 5-day spring breaks, which means ~~nothing to do~~ a load of homeworks!

But I really, really want to post a lot of pictures.. so.. picture spam!!

My favourite mug~

A beautiful necklace I treasure~

THIS IS ONLY NT$ 20.

and NT$ 149. Real save!

^-^

What is this creature's name?

Baby bear looks lonely~

Missha Christmas Special Edition

Bracelets from my Belgian husband

DOMO passport holder

As the picture said.. and it's a real deal, too. Only NT$ 100.

Earrings made from sea corals, from Australia.

DOMO coin pouch! :D

Spring break's been tough, I felt -___- ever since I knew that one of the hardest midterm exams is advanced to this Thursday. I've been planning to study for 2 weeks and I only have 2 days left! A lot of homeworks and translation too! HUWAH!

I bid goodbye to my spring break, I spent most of my time in front of the laptop, I feel dead -_-

I can't wait for summer to come la!

Money Can't Buy Happiness.. Really?

2011-03-29T11:30:00.005+07:00

Really? You think so?

Think again.

I'll say this one thing: Money is not everything, but everything needs money.

In this world, without money, would you survive? No.

Without money, would you eat? No, unless you want to eat those leaves and dirt.

Without money, would you live under a roof now? No, unless you want to sleep under a bridge.

Without money, would you go to a good school and get a good education? No.

Without money, would you be able to buy anything you need? No.

Those who said money can't buy happiness are the ones who took money for granted. They used money to buy things they need to make their happiness. Who would pay for land, house, clothes and food? Money.

I need to be realistic, now.

What made our life less complicated? Money.

What made our life more enjoyable? Money.

Give anyone money and they'll smile. So who said money can't buy happiness?

You wouldn't be able to see your loved ones without money. Who would pay for the plane ticket? Parents? Salary? From other people? Your savings? But it's still money anyway. It's all about money.

People tend to look up to intelligent person. Either they're smarter, or better-looking. What makes them intelligent? Education. How do they get a good education? Good school, good teacher, good books, and good attitude. Put the good attitude aside, everything needs money. Say scholarship, but what about living cost? Don't forget the French saying, "You are what you eat". You can't just eat everything as you please. Good, quality foods are also needed. How to get them? Buy them from the market. And you buy with money. You wouldn't waste your time fishing in the sea or go farming right?

Without money, would you be able to buy things to make you happy? No.

Every person's happiness is of course, different, and it takes different things to make them happy.

Another case we often heard is when the parents have a lot money and give them to their only kid, and that kid felt unloved because his parents always unavailable for him.

That kid took money for granted, because he thought he wouldn't run out of money.

Take all the money from him, I believe he would still feel lonely.

Money and feelings between people are two different things.

We show our affection using money. Would you be able to kiss and hug your significant other without house to live, clothes to wear, and food to eat? No.

People would prefer to go everywhere in a car and eat good food compared to walk everywhere and eat fast food. Sad thing is, there are also people who misused money. You know what I mean.

Stop being a hypocrite and start accepting the fact that you can't do anything without money.

I am angry.

2011-03-25T09:13:00.003+07:00

Hellooooo. It is now 10:21 AM in the morning GMT+8 Taiwan :)

So as you guys know, I'm living in a dormitory. I live with another 3 girls in one room. Packed, I know. And now I'll talk about having a roommate.

You know what? They suck. Well in my case, at least one of them. So, I'm currently the 1st bed (we have 4) and I'm putting this hate, all of it to the 2nd bed. Call her BR. That's her initial in hanyu pinyin -.-

First of all, she LOVES to sleep. She loves to take a nap. At 8 pm. Yesterday was from 4 pm to 9 pm. I don't mind, or frankly, I don't even CARE, that she's taking too much of sleep, but since she's sleeping, I can't just... turn on the lamp. It's inconsiderate. But what if she sleeps TOO MUCH that we're all uncomfortable and we want the lights on? I personally think she actually isn't suited to live together with others.. And yesterday I was too furious and I ended up turning on the lamp when she was sleeping! Hurray! She might have slept through the night if I didn't turn it on.

I believe she has NO CONSIDERATION OR TOLERANCE WHATSOVER. On weekends, she slept like, 4 am in the morning.. and I had to force myself to sleep, listening to her mouse-clicks. She's a very active facebook game user. My other roommate tried to cool ourselves down, but I think we actually reached the point; we had enough.

And so I'm gonna list what she has done.. to us (me). And yes, I'm using this simple present tense just because she simply is still doing these up to TODAY.

-When she's going inside the toilet, she wears her sandals.. leaving the toilet dirty with her steps.

-When she's going out, she puts her bag and trash ON MY SHOES.. wth. What if I put my bag and my trash on HER SHOES? fuuuu.

-Her bipolar sleeping personality. Nuff said.

-Her IGNORANCE. There was this one day when she was called down to the B1 office.. She was still sleeping so I woke her up. Logically.. people would wash their face and come down as soon as possible right? She took a shower instead. She then turned on her computer, and made some oatmeal breakfast. She picked some clothes; which one to wear; and then went to wash her clothes. AFTER that, she went to the B1 office. Wth. Such ignorance.

-When she finishes washing her clothes. She doesn't use the drying machine, but hangs her clothes until they're dry. When the 4th bed was not around.. She DARED to hang her underwears under her bed. (We have these small thingy to hang something under our bed). EVEN until the 4th bed went back to our room. She doesn't even feel 不好意思. wth. 不禮貌啦!!!!!VERY VERY IMPOLITE. Oh, and she even takes up MY place to hang clothes, too. And it's to hang her jeans. So long, wth.

-She's soooooooooooooooo slow in understanding something. She wears eyeglasses; and she often puts them off. So, (she thinks she's prettier without eyeglasses) she's semi-blind.

-Just this morning I told her to put away her shoes since they're everywhere -_- and it's really 不好看啦! I told her WITHOUT ANGER 的感覺.. I think. Her shoe rack is EMPTY and her shoes are scattered everywhere! How come I'm not angry la! You know what she did? She just THREW AWAY (yes, threw) ONE (yes, JUST ONE) slippers to the shoe rack! The slippers were flying to the shoe rack! THAT RUDE. And she just went out without any further word.

-I AM TOO ANGRY I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING ANYMOREEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

My poor boyfriend, I spent 20 minutes venting my anger. He's kinda shocked I think. But really, who's not angry having a roommate like THAT? I'm quite grateful though that she didn't eat/take my things without permission! I heard some roommates do that, wth lah.

I'm fine living with tolerant, considerate girls. But NOT with her. -_____- lah

I'm great this way, I know :D

2011-03-18T22:53:00.002+07:00

Just found some really cool application and I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IT. I recorded a lot of videos already. This is one of my first tries :)

These 6 months

2011-03-15T14:47:00.006+07:00

Dear God,

Today is March 14th, 2011. I'm one of Your children, who is now pursuing her dreams abroad, out of country, alone, without family. I wanted to write a letter for You, God, as I want to thank what You have given to me.

Thank you for giving me such an amazing guy, for giving me so much more than what I deserved. I was hurt, lot of times, and I was lost for a long time. I was stupid for some time, not to mention that I made a lot of mistakes, too. I hurt people, and I guess karma really exists.

I met lots of people, and I learned a lot this past year. It is all thanks to You. I got a full scholarship and I'm able to make my parents proud, it is all thanks to You. I'm thankful that I could go home last winter and showed my parents that I didn't go here for nothing.

But most of all, I'm thankful that You gave me the chance to meet this guy. One of the craziest, silliest, and most reckless guy. I want to tell You again the silly story we had.

I met him back then at June 2nd, at a Korean language class. We were about to attend Kyungsung University in South Korea back then. I didn't talk with him, at all. I was having a crush with someone out there, so I didn't mind to talk with others.

We met again the next Wednesday for class, and the other Wednesdays. Still, we didn't talk at all. At June 15th, I got the acceptance letter from Wenzao Ursuline College of Languages 文藻外語學院, that I got a full scholarship to Taiwan. I kept it secret from my Kyungsung University friends and I only told two of them, who were close friends of mine. I didn't tell him, I didn't know him. The only thing I knew about him was his name. I silently resigned from Kyungsung University.

At July 24th, we meet again. Apparently, some of my friends wanted to hold a small birthday and farewell party for me. He was just tagging along. We all went out for lunch, and then KTV. I was in his car with my other 2 friends. I was even in the back seat. It was about 5 pm and I was worried, because the last bus was 6 pm. But my friends told me to stay longer. And so, I asked him if he could drive me home (I had no other way, and I expected a negative response as his house was like, an hour and half away), but he said yes.

I got home like, 9 or 10 pm? At the way home, I was nervous as it was my first time having a guy drove me home. My hands were cold. His were warm.

The next 2 days, we were planning to go to one of my friend's house. I went to the Taipei Economic and Trade Office to claim my visa. I was dropped off by my dad, and we both thought that I'll go to my friend's house with him. Wrong. His car was used by his mum and he just couldn't use it. I told him that I'm unable to go home (I don't know any way home from that place) -_- and he picked me up right after he was able to use the car.

I didn't know his reasons, even though it's just nothing special, but I began to fall for him.

I fell in love with someone real. It couldn't be helped. I knew it was wrong for me, but I exchanged someone surreal with someone real. I didn't even know if it's going to work out with this silly guy, but I ended up trying the almost impossible chance.

At August 16th, I went to see his school's orchestra concert with him and my friend. I fell for him hard; I wanted to get this over with because I was going to Taiwan and I didn't want to have a serious long-distance relationship. When he drove me home, we hugged for the last time, and I actually said it. I said I liked him, but I only said it because I wanted him to know, and that's it. That was it. I even mentioned that I wanted to stay friends. It was like I just emptied a box full of feelings ready to pop out anytime.

But the feelings didn't go away. I was out of my mind, really. We started texting, and I still remembered those feelings when he changed the way he txted me; from "gw-lo" to "aku-kamu". It was overwhelming.

I realized that language and communication are very important for me, and I also started to realize that two people with two different native languages and cultures will have it rough to communicate in the end. And I can't do it.

Our last meeting, on August 19th

Time is running out, it's August 19th. I left for Taiwan the day after. I spent a day with him and my friends; we didn't have anything special going on, but I knew he was different. His actions, his words, they were all different. He held my point finger with his pinky finger. It lasted only for like 10 seconds, but I never felt happier. And then I knew; I could never fall out of love with him.

Dear God, I wrote so much, but I hope You're still reading this. I came to Taiwan at August 20th, and after I had my own laptop, we shared everything.. It's not going the way I wanted. I wanted us to drift apart, not closer. But we did. Closer.

And then everything just happened. September 14th, exactly 6 months ago.

He said the word. He confessed after he went to a place for 3 days. Those 3 days were without internet and it was hard to communicate.

He asked me, to be his girlfriend, to be his bestfriend, to be someone to share anything with.

I said yes.

I am a very cheesy girl, and I thought I could never see someone even cheesier than me. But I did! It was him, unexpectedly.

You would never thought he's one of the cheesiest guy in the world if you only saw his appearance or befriended him for some time. I thought he's the guy who would never cry for a girl, who would sacrifice SO MUCH for a girl, who would do anything for a girl.

But he was, and he is.

I'm one of the luckiest girl to have him.

Thank you, dear God. I'm really thankful to have him. I consider myself very lucky back then, but this time I'm even luckier. Thank you :)

I waited for 5 months until I could see him. It's worth the wait. It was very awkward at first. But then day after day, I'm very sure we were one of the cutest and unyu-est couple in the world, hahah :)

I never met a guy who would fight this much for me. This guy, who would tell everything to me, whether it's bad or good. This guy who never wrote a letter, but tried his best to write for me every month. This guy, who would cry when he remembered our time together.

As one said, the best relationship, is the one that begins unexpectedly. I didn't expect he could steal the key to my heart. I didn't expect I would be the one who locked his heart, either. But it is, now. My boyfriend.

Dear God, the reason why I wrote this letter for You on March 14th is because that day, is this guy and I's 6th month anniversary. It's not a long time, but not a short time either. In these 6 months, we learned to love, to understand, to wait, to be happy. I thank You for being in our relationship for 6 months, and I hope You will be here inside us for the rest of our life.

Thank You for leading our relationship, for maintaining our faith, for being supportive to each of us. Thank Youu for giving me this imperfect guy in my life, because You know it was me who could see him perfectly. Thank You, dear God. I can't thank You enough, actually, but still I want to thank You.

It's been almost a month since we last saw each other. I still remembered his face when I entered the gate. I often recall that moment and I cry. I still remember even now, his scent when he hugged me, his warmth when he held my hands. I still remember everything.

Valentine 2011

And those memories shall continue this summer. We'll see each other this summer.

I love you, Christopher Natadiharja.

Thank You, God, for giving me the most amazing guy in the world.

about astrological signs.

2011-03-05T10:01:00.002+07:00

01. Cancer/Leo cusp people have the vitality and ambition to be successful in their creative endeavors. Creativity is one of their keywords, and their caring nature ensures that the benefits of their imaginative powers help others.

02. Cancer/Leo people turn to nurturing the family group and take pride in their warm hospitality.

03. They are emotional and traditional, interested in heredity and ancestors.

04. Cancer/Leo people can be prominent on stage and in film, as their natural ability to act and their flamboyance and love of attention make them naturals at fame.

05. They also have a strong ability to see their projects through to the end.

06. Cancer/Leo people are good organizers and tend to be popular, even inspiring.

07. Cancer and Cancer/Leos tend to be more sensitive to the movement of the Moon through the zodiac than are other signs, their moods changing with the Moon’s passage.

08. Leos and Cancer/Leos sometimes feel they are the center of the universe, and sometimes they are! They are gregarious and social, fun-loving and live life with enthusiasm.

09. Generally domestic and peaceful, they have strong emotional drives and won’t sit still when loved ones are threatened.

10. The Sun and Moon, mother and father, day and night; Cancer/Leos are all of these things.

11. Cancer/Leos are very intuitive and jump headfirst into life, without worrying whether their latest goal is realistic or practical. For them, everything about life is Big with a capital B, and if drama and courage is required to meet their goals, they have both in abundance.

12. Their warm and caring nature is very sensitive to other people’s harshness.

13. Cancer/Leos are cheerful and self-assured, sometimes to the point of living in a fantasy world. They are always happy as long as someone is paying attention to them!

14. Pleasure is important to those born on the Cancer/Leo cusp, and they like to spend money to feel good.

15. Cancer/Leos have a strong association with food. They are very imaginative and sensitive, making them excellent amateur chefs.

16. Cancer/Leo people tend to enjoy physical exercise, finding that sweat helps them counter the stress inherent in their emotional nature. They prefer to play in groups, rather than solo. They are too sociable to enjoy solitary running or weight lifting, and they much prefer team sports or group exercise.

17. Cancer/Leos top the charts in almost every area, from devotion to romance.

18. The great strength of the Cancer/Leo is in their creativity and generosity with others.

19. Cancer/Leo people emotional orientation to life help them understand the difficulties their loved ones must work through.

Apparently, I'm a Cancer-Leo cusp since I was born in the border, July 24th.

I find these very true in some ways, and since this is my blog.. my random blog, actually, I'm posting it for reminder purpose :D

Shiseido Majolica Majorca

2011-03-01T09:57:00.006+07:00

Good afternoon, lovelies! Yesterday I just bought a new eyeliner for myself, as I left mine back in Indonesia.

It was rough, a week without eyeliner. I know I shouldn't be dependant on it but my eyes look sad without eyeliner. So, I decided to buy a new one.

I went to the train station and went to this department store they have.

This picture doesn't belong to me, btw.

After looking around, from Maybelline, KATE, Bourjois, Lancôme and L'Oréal, I decided to go with Shiseido Majolica Majorca. It's not only cute, but also the eyeliner was creamy and nice! (tried on hand) This cream pencil liner was just NT $220, which is about US $7! So damn cheap for such brand, such eyeliner. And not to mention the packaging. Majolica Majorca, I think, specializes in packaging. It looks rock-princess like. Pretty.

I tried it on and I was satisfied right the second I finished a line.

Look, how is it? I only drew a simple fine, thin line.

It doesn't look exaggerated. It just enhances my big eyes, which is good. Pictures are unedited.

I give 8/10 for this. I rarely like eyeliner THIS MUCH.

Majolica Majorca is very expensive in other countries, wonder why..

This guy.

2011-02-25T21:27:00.004+07:00

Dearest lovelies, how was your winter break? Mine was one of the best holiday in my life. I went back to Indonesia to see my family and my boyfriend. It was worth it, I must say.

What did I do in Indonesia?

I met one of the most amazing guy in the world.

The guy who would drive for more than an hour and paid for those overrated highway toll fee.. almost EVERYDAY.

The guy who would hold my hand or waist when we went out.. not caring of what others say.. EVERYTIME.

The guy who was responsible for everything, for asking permission from my parents when picking me up and leaving.

The guy who would pay for everything even after I denied many times and still he said that he's going to pay almost everything.

The guy who would still hold my hand while he was driving.

The guy who would cry with me and smile.

The guy who would fulfill even the most ridiculous requests I've ever made.

The guy who would stand my silly behaviours when I was having pms.

The guy who would call me everyday until we fall asleep on the phone.

The guy who would get angry when I didn't drink much water.

The guy who was very proud of having me.

The guy who dropped tears when he faced to the fact that we had to be apart.

The guy who was saving for months just so I could eat what I wanted to eat in Indonesia.

The guy who held my hand when I faced his parents and sister.

The guy who said "YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!" to me.. everyday.

Oh, and would get really mad if I said that I'm ugly.

The guy who ate a lot of chilli sauce until he's sweating like he just got a shower..

The guy who bought me a Burger King just because I said to him I've never eaten one.

The guy who gave me a lot of things full of memories.

The guy who looked at me that way.

The guy who made sure that I'm safe.

The guy who left me speechless.

The guy who respects me, every hugs and every kisses.

The guy who made my Valentine's day memorable.

The guy who loves me.

I left him a week ago in the airport. It was sad leaving him.. I still remember his face when I saw him last. We've gotta fight for this for 5 months until his coming to Taiwan :)

Sometimes I'm sad, sometimes I'm lonely, sometimes I'm happy, and sometimes I'm smiling.

It is not easy at all, to face the fact that I used to hug and kiss him everyday, and now he's far away, more than 1000 kms.

Tonight, is the day he's going to South Korea. The day he's going to face the challenge.

I wish him all the best and I hope he do well so we can get married very soon!

I still can recall when my mum said it's okay to get married young, and his mother told him to study well, get a good job and marry me.

Sounds cheesy, I know.

But I could say to myself, "finally".. There's this guy.

The reality now is I'm facing a VERY BIG Chinese challenge. I would almost cry after the classes. But I have to admit, it is fun and scary at the same time.

I hope you guys have a nice new semester~ I'll write again soon.

Just realized..

2011-01-13T19:29:00.004+07:00

It stated December 14th, 2010 on my last post. In fact, it was actually.. January 13th, 2011. Wth? :s

To all of you who are doing their exams now, add oil! Do your best! Semangat :)

I've been wanting to write about nationality, but not now.. I'm studying Chinese right now ;___;

Today was really cold by the way. There was some presentations. Everyone dressed up so formally! They were so different that I almost laughed. Guys who look good in suits and ties DO impress me. Along with the fact (if) they're smart. I do think the topics were a bit too hard and it's hard to make it enjoyable. But it's the final exam, 是不是沒有辦法了喔?

Also just realized that my hair grows long~ already~

I bought a box of Swissmiss hot chocolate some days ago. 60 envelopes! 2 months! YAY!

Aller Anfang ist schwer.

2010-12-14T22:49:00.004+07:00

Everything in the beginning is hard.

I was talking with my previous German teacher on facebook some weeks ago. That day, I was a bit down, I had a rough day. I was very unsatisfied with my grades, despite the 90+ score. She said to me, "I'm so proud of you. You've always been that silent girl, with nothing special but now see, you're a scholarship student as well as a musician."

She also said, everything in the beginning is hard. But it doesn't mean it will stay that way. The wheel is turning, it will.

This month, I was so busy with Christmas and New Year performance. I loved them so much, despite the cold weather.. so sorry for not updating, lovelies! Some of you even checked my blog constantly, I feel bad lol :p

It was extremely cold in Kaohsiung! No, I'm not suitable for cold weather.. I wish summer could come already! Please! It was so cold that yesterday when it was raining, I could make those clouds with my mouth.. And thus, my mum said, "Take it as your first step before you're going to Europe" Seems like she knows I'm going to stay there..

Anyway, picture spam :D

A moving.. scarecrow in the middle of the road. So cute, Kaohsiung :)

Said to be the most delicious duck noodle ever

Belgian Waffle :3 :3

This is one of the reason why I love Kaohsiung Bus :D

My Belgian husband :D

The ice cream on the Modern Toilet Restaurant..

The fireworks at E-DA world :)

This cutie pie was with me when I was waiting for the fireworks ^^

2 poos

Me, Felita, Jovian, Dea, Megi

I see Santa up there!

I kick the 巨蛋!

My senior :)

After performing Saman Dance in 新光三越 with WINDOSA

At the Modern Toilet Restaurant

In 11 days, I'll be going home! Can't waaait. Finally holiday after a rough semester!

I've learnt a lot this semester, I hope next semester I'll get a lot more. :)

Thank you, 2010. Welcome winter break :)

When You Realized You Took Everything for Granted

2010-12-13T12:22:00.004+07:00

It's been 4 months. I feel like I'm in a very long trip.. and I miss my own bed. I miss everything. I realized I took everything for granted. I wasn't aware, I didn't even know myself well. I was silly; I was stupid. I didn't do enough good things for my parents. Now that I'm here, the urge to help them was like, bursting.. and I don't even know where to vent this feelings.

I have moments with my mum. There was a time when I hate her, so much that I didn't even want to speak to her. There was a time when we were close, we would go shopping together and I knew which would suit her best. There was a time when we don't even talk with each other, too. We were never that "my daughter/mum is my bestfriend" kind, but now I wish I could tell her more about my life.

Friends come and go, boyfriend might just be temporary, bestfriend is just too fake, and we can only depend on our mother.

A lot of memories came flashing by when she's not here. She told me a lot of things. Unhappy things, pleasant things. All of them, and I remembered; she had her time, too. She had her university life, her high school, her childhood, her everything.

Just like what I'm doing right now. My time of my life.

She had went a lot of hardships back then; she fought, she struggled, she lost sometimes, she won, too. She was a strong woman. She was hard on herself and to others. She would be hard on her children sometimes, but soon enough the hard shell will crack.

Inside, she's a caring woman. I knew- because just like my mum, I'm hard on myself and to others. But God knows, I do pay attention and I care about my friends. I just don't like to express it on pointless greetings and shits.

My mum deserves to be happy. She's got too many burden and problems on her shoulder, and I can't even help her. I'm still just a kid. That is why, I'm studying hard for now. For her. I want her to be happy. I want her to see the world, the many things in the world. The reason why I prefer not to live in Indonesia. The reason why world is beautiful.

I found this picture on my mum's facebook and I started crying; They were all smiling.

The woman in the pink shirt on the left is my mum. The black girl is an orphan we met when we held a birthday party for my cousin. That little boy is my uncle's son, next to him is my uncle and his wife. The woman in the middle is my grandmother, and the man in glasses is my aunt's father-in-law. He was close to us.

Can you see the happiness we had- for a moment, there?

And sometimes I think..

2010-12-09T20:07:00.002+07:00

Am I being too good to everyone? Is it only me who thinks that no one is bad? Since when I was this naive?

I was never that girl who gets a lot of "friendly things" from everyone. I never got a birthday surprise, I was never that close to everyone. I do not possess a best friend. I do possess ~~quite~~ close friends, though. I admit, I do close myself from a lot of people. I let them inside my world, but to a certain level that I will never let them inside my circle. My very own circle.

I was never that strong to receive such jokes from friends. I was too sensitive and self-conscious. I do not want to blame anyone for making me like this, but there was one person who gave the biggest impact why I behave this way.

I was born with an enormous need of affection, and a terrible need to give it. That is why I share it with anyone. I am afraid if my points can not reach them. And, I am afraid that they do not feel the same way like I do. I think of them as close friends- do they think of me as close friend, too?

Bad thing is- I am an idealist and a feminist. I believe that no girls should be hurt and that we should all respect each other's rights. I respect privacy. I can be the most evil person you know.. and the kindest person you have ever seen. I stand for things I believe in. I like, I like. I dislike, I dislike. I agree, I agree. I disagree, I disagree. One thing for sure: I hate being fake.

I want them to realize, too.. I am here.

Thing like this has never been this right.

2010-12-09T09:41:00.002+07:00

You are Silver Fawn, who tends to give an impression of being difficult to grasp what you really mean.
People find it hard to know what you think and what you like, no matter how often and how much they talk to you.
Your mysterious atmosphere makes you look like a cold hearted woman, but all the more, you stand for femininity.
You are composed of both natural caution against men and passion for your own life.
A feudalistic ideas and passion for artistic things exist along side each other inside you, and are kept in good balance.
You are full of fantasist ideas, and tends to be rather dreamy sort of person.
Nevertheless, your attitude towards life is extremely steady.
You are not interested in real life, and you don't have many relationships.
You can show astonishing vital power when it comes to long term businesses.
But you tend to withdraw into your shell, and be unable to bring out the trust you have among other people.
You should try and mingle more often with others.
Although you are very unique and have the mysterious atmosphere around you, you tend to get interested in natural and ordinary things
You should create an environment at home, where you could make use of your personal interest and your life mission.
After getting married, you will lead a steady life.
There may be a possibility that you may take an active part outside your home.

I was trying a personality website when I found myself is exactly like what they say. I know, we shouldn't believe in such things, but this is like, so true. I didn't expect it to be this accurate. I was just entering my name, lol.

It's been December, time flies really fast. It's been almost 4 months since I came here. I was so busy and wasn't able to update frequently, sorry! :( Last Saturday I went to 屏東 to climb mountain in 三迪門.. It was really rough! I was one of the last ones, since I was originally weak and I couldn't do extreme sports. I didn't even feel satisfied when I reached the top.. Maybe because I don't really like mountains. I like sea better :3

Anyway, I did the climbing from 10 AM until like 2 PM, without much stops. You can imagine how my legs hurt.. And after I got back to the dorm, I still went to Tainan to see my friends having a dance performance on an Indonesian Day held by Indonesian students association in Tainan. I walked for minutes (felt like HOURS!) I went to Tainan by train, too. I slept for roundly 12 hours after that :3

So, this week has been really busy, too. Lots of homework and as usual, my Chinese. I believe it's getting better. I need some time to be able to give an immediate response, though. Don't worry, I can do it :) I found this cute quote about the stars and I'm going to share it with you guys;

It's never easy to keep reaching for dreams. Strength and courage can sometimes be lonely friends. But those who do reach the stars, walk in stardust.

Don't ever let anyone underestimate you, especially yourself. And don't let someone tell you that YOU CAN'T, especially yourself.

See you soon with picture updates, lovelies ♥

The Last Day of November

2010-11-30T17:56:00.002+07:00

Greetings, lovelies! Winter is coming, the upper side of the world is having their snow already! I'm so jealous :( It's cold here in Kaohsiung, I got sick several times. Not good :x My 老師 said, it's just November! How could you survive in January? God, I'm scared of that, too. Seems like I'm just not fit to live in the upper side of the world.

The last day of November marks the end of my 30 day challenge, so here goes;

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

I forgot to post the 29th day, what the.

Day 29-

In this past month, I have learnt a lot. Besides the inevitable Chinese classes.. I have learnt some life lessons. One of them and the most important is that there will, and always will be people who dislike or disagree with me. But we can't please everyone, and I rather study for myself and pouring myself full buckets of positive thoughts.

Day 30-

I can't even .. describe myself in sentences. I'm special, das ist alles :)

It's been long..

2010-11-29T12:28:00.006+07:00

Since I wrote! It's been like a week? I was so busy I didn't even have any time to blog. Let's just do the challenge and I'll tell you my story this week :)

Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 24-

Dear Mom and Dad, I'm going to write to you soon, because my words are just too precious to be shown publicly in my blog. I just want you to know that after I left you for Taiwan, I realized that I miss you like more than ever. I can't wait to have a long chat with you dad and go shopping with you mum. I love you mum and dad :)

Your daughter,

Gaby

Day 25-

What would you find in my bag?

My water bottle. Can't live without this!
My Nokia 5130 and iPod :3
My cards.. lol
My DOMO for-everything-clutch
My small vocabulary cards for me to read when I walk

Day 26-

My friends.. They're all fine. I don't have that kind of "BEST BEST BEST BEST friend", I don't know how they think of me, though. I don't feel like having such a close friend but I want to have friends who will always be there. Like I do to my friends.

Day 27-

Why? Because I am.. bored -_-

Day 28-

Me last year

This is me around October 2009. I was a big, annoying, long-haired and spoiled little girl.

This is me now, I changed A LOT. The me last year would hate the me now. I was so indecisive, so young, and so stubborn. I'm still stubborn, but at least I can stand by myself. I'm 3700km away from my old self, old country. I lost much weight and I cut my hair. I pretty much a very different person now.

This week, I had a GOBANG competition.. Those of you who don't know GOBANG, go google :p It's fun, yet so hard. I lost on my third match. The girl who beat me was the winner of the competition.. wth lol and this saturday, I went with Dea and Jovian to have a KRT Combat Competition. It's like, Amazing Race, the Kaohsiung version. There are a lot of stops and riddles and tasks we have to do. We went to lots of stops in the MRT station, and I felt really grateful that I did study Traditional Chinese Characters 注音 because we had a riddle of it and we skipped like, 5 minutes because I could read it immediately :D It was fun, I was in a group with 2 Korean girls, a Japanese girl, Dea and 2 Taiwanese as the Team Assistant. We encountered some difficulties, too.. There was a game which we have to ask the pedestrians about the origin of Formosa Boulevard. We asked a guy and he was like, 我沒有時間!沒有事情 and I was like, MAD.. why so annoying? I was just asking! Pfft. In the end, we won lor~ Instead of congratulating us.. the people who were waiting told us to hide. They were like, "We're going to make the 2nd group to come feel like they're the 1st! But you will all suddenly show up, okay?"

This is my team~ The girl in black dress doesn't count lol :p

And also, yesterday I went to 嘉義 with Indonesian friends~ It was super fun, super tiring, too. To make it short, I was rowing a dragon boat, sitting on its head, rowing a 2-people canoe, eat some large seashells, playing swings, cycling.. and sleeping. I forgot how nice it was to ride a bicycle! I miss it.. When I got back, I'm going to ride a bicycle.. a lot :) And there I also made that I 愛 Chinese thing. It's from wood and I colour it!

Me on the dragon boat's head :p

Such a long post, see you soon lovelies! Be sure to post a comment and I'll shower you kisses!

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

2010-11-23T18:05:00.002+07:00

Something I crave for a lot.. Well, I do crave for A LOT of things. For instance, oranges.. too bad oranges are expensive in Taiwan. I also feel like eating chocolate.. but I don't want to add any fat. I crave for Hello Kitty and DOMO as soon as I got to Taiwan, they're so cheap here :)

Today's post is more like a rant, I was disappointed,very disappointed that I scored 96 for my business english test. I don't care what haters say, they may say 96 is nice already, be grateful etc but this is my fucking life and my fucking grade and I don't need them to say that it is enough for me because it is me who decides how much scores would I be satisfied with.

I. am. not. satisfied. AT. ALL.

Should do better on presentations and final exams :(

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

2010-11-22T11:17:00.003+07:00

My passion :)

Well, of course some people have their own passion. But mine- I believe mine is different than any others. I don't have any intention to show off, but it really is.

I believe in my dreams. I believe that we all should dream big. Always expect the worst, but dream of the highest. Just in case if we can't reach the dream.. See what we have done to reach it. The traces, the process.. those make our life precious. Those make our life worth all the pain. I keep telling myself- that someday, these will all be worth it. Even though I threw away some of my precious things.. Even though I hurt myself. I believe these will all be worth it. Someday.

I just got some results of my midterm exams. I can't believe it, my English teacher is so so so so so so so so 犯!真的! Like, she cut my points just because I'm writing how I want to write. I mean, writing styles are different for each person and she expects me to- what? write how she wants us to write? No way. I believe I have no grammatical errors (and yes, I have none) but she judged my diction.. I can't believe it. I got more than 85, but I still feel it's not enough. I don't like how she gave our points.. It's just unfair. If, if I was really at fault, I wouldn't mind. But I'm not wrong here.. ljkalksdlajdklaLjadlka idk. I'm irritated much.

Today is so so tiring, I just sent a birthday card for my friend in Indonesia :) I hope it arrived in time! I have to make some vocabulary lists now, bye lovelies ♥

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

2010-11-21T15:44:00.002+07:00

Something that makes me happy?

Simply everything :)

Anyway, I watched Harry Potter 7 and the Deathly Hallows today ^______^

I shall not speak, as some of you may not want spoilers. But anyway, I love the movie. I can't wait for the next part.

Imax theather was awesome :D

Clothes I just bought :) What do you think, lovelies?

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

2010-11-20T13:31:00.003+07:00

Reading this day's objective cracked me up. I mean, someone I see myself marrying/being with in the future? Don't tell me those Korean fangirls put up their favourite Korean boys.. that's just.. creepy.

Well, it's obvious that I can't see myself marrying/being with another guys right now. I am taken. We do not and will never know what the future brings, but I can see myself with this guy in the future.. I hope. *crosses fingers

I just woke up actually from a nap and before I slept I told him to wake me up at 5 because I need to go to eat. It's 5:28 that I woke up. 29 missed calls. Thank you for your patience.. in such small things. It's the small things that count :)

So here he is, someone I see myself being with in the future.

I love this picture of you by the way, boyfriend :p

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

2010-11-19T12:29:00.002+07:00

YAAAAY DAY 19 :D

Well put it simple, I don't really have that many nicknames.

My full name is Gabriela Maria Gondokusumo. Chinese name is 吳晶穎 :)

Most of my friends call me Gaby. My mum hates when my dad put another "b" on my name.. haha so it's Gaby. I have some friends they call me Gege, my initials. Fortunately I don't have any embarrassing nicknames, lol.

I'm gonna watch Harry Potter 7 this Sunday I can't waaait! Treat for myself after the midterm! Yaaahz :D

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

2010-11-18T08:41:00.004+07:00

Good morning, lovelies. I woke up with stomachache and I missed a 2-hour practice with my friends. I guess it's because the food I ate yesterday. After all, I'm still an Indonesian.. there's some Taiwanese food I couldn't stand.

It's day 18 already, huh? So fast :x

I'm gonna list my plans,dreams, and goals now, haters gonna hate.. I don't give a damn. haha

Plans

-visit Belgium (Europe) during my university years

-enter University of People during my second year

-go back home as soon as possible :'(

-get another scholarship for Master degree

-learn French during my second year

Dreams

-UN Interpreter for English-Indonesian-Chinese-French :)

-a loving husband, and cute 2 kids

-a cottage for winter in Europe, and a bungalow for summer in Bali

-take my mum for a trip around the world.. she deserves to be happy

Goals

-first/second rank on 翻譯系 every year *crosses fingers*

-get a job as a teacher asap

-fluent in Chinese as soon as possible

-take a good care of myself (read: eat well and healthy, lose some fat)

-finish these stacks of books.. I always have a lot of books to read.

These.. I'm going to have these all.

Short flashback, when I was at 9th grade, I had a teacher. She's very old, a former teacher at my dad's school. When I get home, I want to visit her again. She taught me maths and physics, those things I don't wish to study. haha

She told me a lot of stories. As she was old, of course. She told me various stories about her former students or relatives or acquaintances. She told me that she's proud of them, they were soaring everywhere. They got scholarships, experienced great things in life. I was so fascinated that I came up to a wish: I wish she would tell a story about me to her students, too.

I want to change people's lives, too. As how she did to me.

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

2010-11-17T16:49:00.003+07:00

If I had the chance, I'd want to switch lives with BoA. She's incredible, talented, young, beautiful, anything :) I wanted to know what is world, according to her point of view.

So, how did I discover that my passion is language? It's all thanks to her. I listened to her songs and I googled her. Later that I knew that she could speak Korean, Japanese, English, and also a bit Chinese. I was amazed. I studied Japanese and Korean from her songs, without any classes taken. I fail though. Haha. Right now I can only speak basic Japanese and Korean and the ability to read them.. without understanding what does it mean. I can type too, but I don't think I should be proud of it.

I finally know what it means to have "talent". It is true, a special natural ability. But as for me, talent is not only that special natural ability. It is when I study/practice about it but I will not feel tired or bored. It's exactly when I study foreign languages. I get tired after practising piano and cello for hours, sometimes bored. But when I'm on my desk, the Chinese book in my hand, I can study like hours and hours and I need my boyfriend to remind me to go take some rest.

To succeed, talent is 1% and effort is 99%. I'm lucky to have both of them running at the same time.

Thank you, BoA 寶兒 :)

If she knew me when I was 13 years old, and that she inspired me to learn all these languages.. would she be proud of me now? :)

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

2010-11-16T09:46:00.002+07:00

I kinda miss my long hair. :)

Today marks the 40th day since my grandmother died. Tonight, my family in Indonesia will pray specially for it. I wish I were with them, really.. These 3 months being away from home is really, really, hard for me. I thought I can stand it without them but I just realized.. I can't. Especially when someone you've been looking forward to see had gone forever.

For my late grandmother,

I miss you. And I love you. Rest well :)

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

2010-11-15T08:47:00.003+07:00

1. Adelaide Sky - Adhitia Sofyan (I started with this)

2. My Favorite Things - Olivia Ong

3. Love Story - piano and cello acoustic duet by Jon Schmidt

4. Teenage Dream - Katy Perry

5. The Best You Never Had - Leona Lewis

6. Wedding Bell - Depapepe

7. Puzzle - Tahiti 80

8. One Note Samba - Olivia Ong

9. Run Devil Run - SNSD

10. Selamanya - Diva Gianina

I just finished my very first day of mid-term week. It wasn't hard, but I had a terrible stomachache during the exam.. which left me motionless (haha) for about 10 minutes. But I did well, I guess. Cross fingers! :)

Happy 2 months with boyfriend! Yesterday, actually. Thank you for these 2 months! 麻煩你了! I've been such a troublesome girlfriend, thank you for taking care of me! Sorry for making you worry, I'm trying my best not to get another bruise! :D

Oh, and now I always see the traffic light and cars before I cross the road, you know? ^__^

Sorry for not giving you the attention and the love you deserve. Thank you for being so understanding that I need to study everyday! Take care and be safe on your way home okay?

I've got a song for you! Cheesy? Unfortunately yes :p

Boyfriend - D'sound

If you met my boyfriend
You would wish that you were me
'cause everything about him
Tells you bout his honesty.
There's no more being weary
And even when I cry
I do it 'cause I'm happy
And I'm in bliss
We can go on travels
Resting in a sole embrace.
Drugs could never beat this:
Trippin' high and yet so safe.
He blinds me when he's smiling
He leaves me with no words
He shelters me from evil
I'm receiving all of the love I've missed

P.S. your new haircut looks good on youu :)

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

2010-11-14T16:20:00.002+07:00

Family :)

~~Dad's holding the camera, wth why is he not here -__-~~

I know I'm lucky here, but I miss home :'(

If I was put in an Indonesian university, I wouldn't feel this way. Family is the most important thing in the world. Family comes first.

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

2010-11-13T18:12:00.002+07:00

Dear someone,

It's not recently, it's been a while, but I think you realize that you hurt me, a lot. I have no need to speak about it with you again. I hurt you and you hurt me, and I think that's the end of our friendship- which was, from strangers to friends and back to strangers again.

Our silence hurts me a lot. It was nice to talk to you but then I know, we are too different. I may speak no more, we have different lives now. You're doing just fine without me.

Sincerely,

someone who has been hurt.. by you :)

It's kinda funny..

2010-11-12T19:11:00.004+07:00

How we're going separate ways. All of us. Yet, the world is shrinking, making it such a small small world!

I just recently found a lost friend in Facebook. It's almost 10 years since I saw them! (They're brother and sister) I knew they were ice-skaters, a good one! It's just amazing, to discover lost friends.

I've been closing my eyes in my city, it's just like putting an eye mask, all my life I was in Indonesia. The same home, the same school (YES, I've been on my school since I was kindergarten until I graduate high school), the same everything. But now, I started to open my eyes and discover that they are teary eyes.

I'm so far away from home.

It took me 18 years 3 months and 18 days, 3980 km away from home, and 3 days of fever to realize- that the people I love the most are my family. The images of my mum and dad's face when I almost entered the boarding room. The memories of my brothers when we were fighting. The tears of my grandmother when she couldn't send me off to the airport.

I can't hold my tears.

I'm now in Taiwan, my friends are scattered.. all over the world! Isn't it amazing? They're in the U.S., Australia, NZ, German, Japan, South Korea, Singapore, Malaysia, China, U.K., and even in Indonesia, they're all scattered in different cities. Oh, they attended such good universities, I'm so proud of them :)

I was a little girl, with no special abilities, now here I am, speaking 3 languages fluently and another 2 languages, also playing cello and piano. I'm kinda amazed myself. But my friends are also amazing! Seeing them when they were little until now- it's just amazing.

I wish all of my friends luck all over the world, whatever you're doing.. Good luck!

Day 12- How you found out about blogspot and why you made one

2010-11-12T09:47:00.002+07:00

It was 2008 when I started making a blogspot. I admit, it was.. peer pressure xD lol others make blogspot too, so I thought, why not? Some of my friends' blogs are nice actually, some of them just stopped.

It was a love-hate relationship. I blogged a lot during 2008, yet I forgot so much during 2009. I just started to blog actively since August 2010. This blog records my life, so I'm not intending to delete this blog :)

Let me go Indonesian for this, just yesterday my boyfriend and I had a nice video call and here's what he said.

I: ayo dong gombalin aku -__- ~

Him: aduh aku sih ga bisa gombal sayang, habis semuanya beneran dari hatiku..

I: itu barusan apa?? dasar gombaaal!

So cheesy, yet so cute. I miss you 바보! I'm going home soon, don't worry :)

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

2010-11-11T17:28:00.003+07:00

Wee! Another picture of me and friends eh :)

I decided to put this up, my friends in Taiwan. These 4 people are the one I'm going to be with until I graduate. I hope we can graduate in time together.

A flash update about me, I just recovered (a bit) after drinking some hot drink the tea-selling ai made for me. It's honey mixed with lime. So sour, yet after I drank it I felt much more better. Yaa :D I was so sick I couldn't even attend chinese class, and during a 3-hour-class, I almost passed out. :(

But now I'm doing quite well, I hope tomorrow I can be like I always am.

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

2010-11-10T17:21:00.002+07:00

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Songs I listen to when I'm happy, sad, bored, hyped and mad are basically all the songs in my iTunes. I had my iTunes synced with my boyfriend's, so it's almost like we're listening to the same thing. Lame. I know.

So um, today's like, I want to share to you lovelies how I'm feeling.

I'm sick, a heavy flu and a headache, I make sonatinas from my sneezes and I bet Clementi would be proud of me. I recently encountered one person, let's say his/her name is Ungrateful and let's call her by him.

You know how many scholarship chances are there in the world for undergraduates? Like, almost impossible. What I got is truly a miracle. So many parents out there pay A LOT for their sons/daughters tuition fees. And yet, he's going to waste it. By not having any will to put up with the studies.

Well, I get this thing. Maybe his goal in life is not high studies or education.. maybe something else. But, are you really going to waste something this big? A chance this big? We are here not to play. We are here to study. Not to waste money by spending it for something unimportant. We've had enough of his unwillingness, we've had enough of his rant, we've had enough of everything. There's gonna be one point when we won't even care anymore.

If you want attention, don't let yourself be the center of attention because people take pity on you. Be the center of attention because you excel in many things. Because you work hard in something. Something you really work hard for. Running away by sleeping or going out? 不行. It's not gonna work out. What I'm saying is- put some more effort. Nothing in this world comes easy.

The harder thing and the right thing are basically the same thing.

Easy doesn't come up in grown-up life.

-The Weather Man

They're one of my favourite quotes. They keep me walking.

I hope they keep you walking too.

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

2010-11-09T19:39:00.002+07:00

My ability to learn any foreign languages quickly.

I just realized I skipped day 5 and 6 haha nevermind.

Oh, my favourite super hero was Blossom from the Powerpuff Girls ♥

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

2010-11-08T11:56:00.002+07:00

Short term goals for November :)

It's still the beginning of the month :D My goals this month are,

-pass the mid-term exam well (or else, my scholarship.. will.. be.. ;A;)

-do well with the violin club

-improve my Chinese even more

-can save for The Body Shop liquid eyeliner = 3=

-get the part-time job to teach :)

We'll see next month how these goals are doing :D

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

2010-11-07T22:08:00.002+07:00

I can't think of any, sorry :(

I have a lot of things in my mind today.

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

2010-11-06T21:57:00.001+07:00

Biting nails. I bit nails like crazy -__-.. I wish I didn't have this habit, I want to use cute nail polishes :p

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

2010-11-05T16:55:00.001+07:00

I miss you girls.

Santa Ursula BSD Bahasa 2008-2010 :)

Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name

2010-11-04T09:16:00.003+07:00

So, it's Day 02, the meaning behind my blog name.

I used to have some random names for my blog, but this time, I don't think I'm gonna change it anymore. I just changed my blog name to "when will you run out of passion?" as, you know from my last blog post, it somehow woke me up.

Everytime I'm going to blog, I'll read those words and somehow I, will wake up from the state of unconsciousness. and start studying

Someday, I'm going to be a person whom everyone always think of - "When will she run out of passion?"

My passion is overwhelming. A UN Interpreter. No one can tell me that I can't. Not even myself.

My friend popped out a question.

2010-11-03T18:54:00.002+07:00

"When will you run out of passion?"

It made me think for a while. Gosh, since I came here, I never run out of passion to study. Study, study, study.

I made myself think what I've been doing will never be enough. Never. Never be, and never will.

People throw me down- I bounce back. People underestimate me- they'll get double.

I may break down sometimes, get sick or make mistakes- but I'll never run out of passion.

Thank you for asking that question, another wake-up call.

Load of posts..

2010-11-03T17:21:00.004+07:00

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about blogspot and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Because I'm gonna try this :) Adapted this from tumblr, let's see how'd I do.

Day 01- A recent picture of me and 15 interesting facts about myself.

1. My name is very long. Gabriela Maria Gondokusumo.

2. I'm currently floating in Kaohsiung's sky.

3. I can play cello, piano, and electone. Proudly saying Grade 7 piano and principal cellist for 2 years. Necessary electone skills for church reason.

4. I'm Quintilingual. I can speak fluent Indonesian and English. Average Chinese, Korean, and German.

5. I can write in Malay Arabic.

6. I have a big penguin doll ♥

7. I love to rant, rant, rant.

8. I can be hateful when you don't treat me right.

9. I live with this saying;

"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." -Dr. Seuss

10. Before I went to Taiwan, I was about to go to South Korea to study music, but then language called me.

11. I love CHEESE! :D

12. I have a incredible memory on languages. I can type in Korean, Japanese, and Traditional Chinese on the same computer keyboard. Not alphabetic, but the default orders.

13. I love DOMO.. as much as I love orange.

14. I love Hello Kitty, yet I love all those classic vintage thing. I love everything, basically.

15. My dream is to be an interpreter at United Nations.

when I break down, I see..

2010-10-31T22:19:00.003+07:00

I know people look different in pictures and seem different over text, but I think it’s the cutest thing when I see the “cute tumblr love stories”. I want that, the love that held on so long even through the distance. I believe that love can be found anywhere, I say that distance isn’t a big problem in a relationship. I’m not going to say it doesn’t matter because yes, it does tear you apart sometimes. Long distance relationships are not easy, but neither are any other types of relationships.

I think trust is the biggest problem for me personally. If I ever had a long distance relationship, I’d be the most faithful person I could ever be. I’m not the kind of person to mess with people’s feelings and I’m honest to the fullest extent. Me trusting a guy is a different story. If he keeps in contact with me EVERYDAY, it would make me feel so safe. I would never trust him 100% though, I’m too much of a jealous person. But, I feel like distance makes a relationship stronger as well.

Taking it in a guy’s point of view, I think not being there physically kills him inside. Not being there to wipe away the tears and holding her in his arms. It makes you different than the average everyday couple. Guy’s think distance matters a lot.. it means so little when the person means so much, seriously. Finding a guy that would actually be willing to be in a long distance relationship is one of the hardest, most specialist things to find.

If you’re in a long distance relationship currently.. stay strong. You show everyone in this world that true love can’t be touched no matter how many miles away you guys are.

I'm stating, long distance relationships, 遠距離戀愛, is not the same with online relationship. I know how it felt when I was with him even though we were just friends back then. I know, when I see him, which is soon, I'd get all the butterflies like when I saw him 2 months ago. Right now, I don't even bother getting close to other guys. I don't want him to feel less just because I took pictures with another guys.

He's just too much for me now. His will to keep fighting for me when I break down into tears while we're video-calling.. Our hearts grow fonder. He doesn't mind when I use up our time just to study and let him looking at me on our video-calls. I'm able to study that much everyday is also thanks to him, as he's not demanding at all. He gives me strength everyday. And so I say.. I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

Oh, and Happy Halloween everyone :p

performance ♥

2010-10-31T21:48:00.004+07:00

So, yesterday.. I had my very first performance in Taiwan. It went well, but I'm not quite satisfied yet :( I wish I played better.

Anyway, it was a very tiring night. VERY TIRING. I got up like 7 and did some self practice for an hour and then we practiced from 9 to 3pm, and went to Kaohsiung Arena at 5pm. I brought the cello in my back, it was rough.. and my neck got swollen -__-; .. and my fingers hurt, too. But I love the feeling when I play the cello :)

Here's some pictures from the performance.. and see, I got the Wenzao Violin Club shirt :3 ~

The Wenzao Violin Club T-shirt ~
Vivi and I :3
My cello got snapped before the performance.. bad luck :p
At Kaohsiung Arena's somewhat-event-stage :D
The whole club crew~ :D

Thanks to my senior for the picture :)

And so, these weeks have been tough, practicing and now I got 8 hours of another chinese class. So, every week I get 20 hours of chinese classes. Yay, couldn't be ~~more stressful~~ happier :D

Bonus pic lol lol

reminder

2010-10-25T12:20:00.004+07:00

Sometimes we're making big differences in life.. and not everyone will like it. I have this quote I love from tumblr-

You eat, you're fat. You don't eat, you're a freak. You drink, you're an alcoholic. You don't drink, you're a pussy. You read, you're a nerd. You don't read, you're stupid. You tell a secret, you're an attention seeker. You don't tell a secret, you're still attention seeking. You let someone in, you're easy. You don't let someone in, you're too uptight. You smoke, you think you're cool. You don't smoke, you're a loser. You've had sex, you're a slut. You haven't had sex, you're a frigid little bitch. You wear make up, you're a slag. You don't wear make up, you're ugly. You can't please anyone. Ever.

word.

I just cut my hair yesterday. Despite the hairfall reason, I think I really needed a haircut. I was longing for an image change, for the 3 years having long hair. Well, some love it, some dislike it, I don't care.

I'm posting the quote from tumblr to say- I'm going to do what I want. Whatever it is, I don't live to please anyone.

Listen, if it's what your heart says and it can make everyone happy, go on. But, if it's not what your heart is saying but it can make everyone happy, please don't unless you want everyone to be happy except you.

I love my current haircut. How about you?

Before..

And after.

I'll see you again soon, lovelies :)

I love you.. to infinity and beyond.

2010-10-23T22:10:00.005+07:00

Welcome my silly ~~other half~~ Christopher.

I Got You - Leona Lewis

A place to crash
I got you
No need to ask
I got you
Just get on the phone
I got you
Come and pick you up if I have to
What's weird about it
Is we're right at the end
And mad about it
Just figured it out in my head
I'm proud to say
I got you

Ain't falling a part, or bitter
Let's be bigger than that and remember
The cooling outdoor when you're all alone
We'll go on surviving
No drama, no need for a show
Just wanna say
I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye
I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I'll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you
Go ahead and say goodbye (go ahead)
I'll be alright (say goodbye)
Go ahead and make me cry
I'll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you

'Cause this is love and life
And nothing we can both control
And if it don't feel right
You're not losing me by letting me know

A place to crash
I got you
No need to ask
I got you

90 days to go until I can see him again, can't wait :)

Thank you for letting me study everyday when we're video calling, it means a lot.

Now, smile, silly ♥

Fuck miles! :D

the wake up call.

2010-10-22T12:02:00.002+07:00

It's been 2 months since I came to Taiwan. Time flies really fast, and I start to miss everything back then. For some times I felt like everything's easy, simple, and .. it's gonna be okay.

No it's not.

It's way different. I'm here, alone, without family. No one to hold on to when I'm sad, no one to tell everything to when I need someone to whine to, no one to tell me everything's gonna be okay, no one's going to take care of me. Physically.

Suddenly, everything is based on my own choice. My own decision. When to wash clothes, when to study, when to eat or not to eat, when to take out the laundry, when to go out with friends, when to throw out the garbage, when to change the bedsheet, when to go to sleep, when to go shower, when to chat, when not to.

2 months is fast, but not that fast. Everyday I studied Chinese by myself for more than 3 hours- including weekends, and even more on weekdays. Can't even believe I spent 12 hours studying some days ago. I admit, in just 2 months, I can speak, have fun and even playing around with Taiwanese, and my studying assistant was really grateful she doesn't need to explain everything in English, but I miss my home.

It's not like I miss Indonesia, I love it here, I really love Taiwan. But I miss everyone- the people- mum, dad, brothers. Those silly moments we had everytime we went to church, and having a dinner after church- where my brothers would frown all the way home if mum decided not to eat outside. Where dad would be like, "oh we can eat there, I know they're having some opening sale :D" and we ended up paying a lot, and no, there's no such thing as "opening sale" lol. As usual, the I-know-everything dad. the don't-tell-me-i-already-know-everything mum, the stop-talking-i-know-already brother, and the please-tell-me-everything brother. I love you mum, dad.

I miss my classmates. We were 9, we went all the separate ways and here I am, 3600km away from them, and realizing that I was taking time for granted. Yesterday I looked up again everything we've all been through- thanks to facebook. Our first awkward day, our first going out together, our first fight, our first make-up conversation, our first everything. I had 2 years of my high school life- thanks to you guys. I'm lucky to have those 2 years with you :) And now, we don't even know when- when we're going to see one another, physically, all together, those 8 other headstrong and obstinate young girls. One thing is, I'm fighting here, one of the main reasons why I'm fighting is to see you girls real soon. You girls, 8 girls with all different behaviours, reactions, personalities.. I'm so proud of you. Even though I know we all have different perspectives- we somehow made it work. Anastasia Bisenty, Adisti Citra, Dinar Barita, Gabriela Gondokusumo, Jessica Emily, Khairunnisa, Laverna, Ollyanda Pardede, Tami Sandyarani. Bahasa 2008-2010 :) I love you girls.

I miss my boyfriend. Back there at Indonesia, we didn't have the chance to hug as a couple, we only had 2 months as friends, 3 days as crushes, and it took him some time to make up his mind- that he's ready for this. I never even thought we could be together, by the way. Haha. Ever since I made up my mind- to be with him, everyday's been lovely (almost!) I still remember when he asked me out, I objected "Why? I'm not sure you're ready enough for this." and he answered immediately "If I'm not ready enough for this.. I wouldn't even ask you at the first place." I cried. His love gives me hope :) and now, I'm waiting for his package to come- a doll and his clothes, I can't wait. His devotion and his will to make this work and even sacrificing himself- they give me hope. Christopher Natadihardja. I love you. Oh, and fuck miles.

I realize what I am now- a student of Translation and Interpreting in Wenzao Ursuline College of Languages. My goal to be an interpreter at the UN 聯合國- it will come true. I know it will. It better will. Call me a dreamer- I am. One of the hardest department even for a Taiwanese. My studying assistant even said.. "None of my friends possess such a big dream like yours." Nah, it's okay. When there's a will- there's a way. I have to say.. this is the first time I challenge myself for something REALLY BIG. I challenge myself for a scholarship. I challenge myself to be fluent in Chinese in less than 4 years. I challenge myself to live alone in Taiwan, 8 hours away from Indonesia. Sometimes I feel like breaking down- when you feel like "I've been studying for 12 hours a day and I still feel it's no where near enough." Everytime I feel like it.. I check my inbox and see a txt from my senior, she said, "When things are getting rough, cheer yourself.. remind yourself that not everyone got a chance like what you've got." Thank you.

This is my chance, now. I've got the map and I'm not letting it go. I just need to study how to read that map and walk there. It's okay. I can say- everything's going to be alright.

2 months being here wake me up. I can do this. I know I can- I've got all support I can get. I've got such a positive thinking some other people do not possess.

And when I feel like crying, I remind myself- I'm the luckiest girl alive.

DOMODOMODOMO

2010-10-14T10:24:00.003+07:00

I'm trying to write 翻譯系 and my chinese name, 吳晶穎 :))

you will all be jealous.

Domo pen :D
DOMO iPod case :D
DOMO everything useful case (cash,cards,cellphone,iPod,..) got this from my Belgium friend and others :)
DOMO mini bao :3
DOMO mini bao is actually a shopping bag! :DD
DOMO FAN for 10NT!

strange! D:

2010-10-13T00:42:00.001+07:00

gotta try this though D:

1.. Pertama-tama tulis angka 1 sampai sebelas di

kertas anda secara vertikal (atas ke bawah)

2.. Tulis angka yang paling kamu senang (antara 1-

11) disebelah angka No.1 dan 2

3.. Tulis 2 nama orang (lawan jenis) yang kamu

kenal, masing-masing di No.3 dan No.7

4.. Tulis 3 nama orang yang kamu kenal di No.4, 5,

dan 6. Disini kamu boleh menulis nama orang di

keluarga, teman, kenalan. Siapapun OK. Cuma

harus yang kamu kenal

5.. Di no.8, 9, 10 dan 11 kamu tulis nama judul

lagu yang berbeda-beda

6.. Terakhir, tulis kamu punya permohonan.

(Kamu minta permohonan)

NAH.......... . .. dibawah ini ada jawaban dari psikotest-nya mudah-mudahan cocok jawabannya.

1.. Anda harus memberitahu ke orang yang anda

tulis di No. 7 tentang psi kotest ini.

2.. Orang yang anda tulis di No.3 adalah orang

yang kamu cintai.

3.. Orang yang anda tulis di No.7 adalah orang

yang kamu suka, tetapi bertepuk sebelah tangan.

4.. Orang yang anda tulis di No.4 adalah orang

yang anda rasa paling penting bagi anda.

5.. Orang yang anda tulis di No.5 adalah orang

yang paling mengerti tentang anda.

6.. Orang yang anda tulis di No. 6 adalah orang

yang membawa keberuntungan pada anda.

7.. Lagu yang anda tulis di no. 8 adalah lagu yang

ditujukan untuk orang No.3

8.. Lagu yang anda tulis di no.9 adalah lagu yang

ditujukan untuk orangNo.7

9.. Lagu yang anda tulis di no.10 adalah lagu yang

melukiskan apa yang ada di hati anda.

10.. Terakhir, lagu yang anda tulis di No.11 adalah

lagu yang melukiskan hidup anda.

it's so damn true. i was like o__O? but yeah. it's true.

♥

2010-10-12T18:18:00.003+07:00

What happened today?

2 hours of boring English class, (which annoyed me much why I didn't take TOEFL back then.. I believe my grades are way higher.. I can take 英文系's classes if I did.. -__-)

3 hours of ~~YAYfacebook~~ boring business English class,and..

this.

Yes yes yes sweetheart, your letter is finally here ♥

I'm going to write again to you now! :D

#surprise?

Sitou and Tainan, 2 days :)

2010-10-11T10:42:00.006+07:00

I really AM TOO tired to tell everything! So, I'm uploading a lot of pictures for you guys :D

In Eternal Golden Castle, see I'm so big I can touch the walls XD

HA.

With my roommate in dorms, she's from Malaysia~

In Anping Fort

Oh, and yes, I LOVE DOMO.

In Eternal Golden Castle. This is a statue about the love between a Dutch doctor and a Taiwanese maid. They had some times of long distance relationship but they made it in the end.. I'm taking picture with this just so I can do it too, like them :D

At Sitou Nature Recreation Area. I don't have any idea what this is, but.. you know what I mean.

Eternal Golden Castle :)
With Megi in the Cilin Lake :)
left- mine, right- Megi's .. We were climbing up for 2 hours and down for half an hour, I think.. I believe it's more than 4 kilometers already.
Picture was taken like after walking up the mountain for 2 hours.
Cilin Lake.. it's jasmines in my back :)
With Mai, she's a Japanese exchange student. I love her :D
Sky Walk- Sitou Nature Recreation Area

I really AM TOO tired to tell everything! So, I'm uploading a lot of pictures for you lovelies :D

2010-10-11T10:08:00.000+07:00

We shared both laugh and tears together, I spent my childhood with you and you inspired me so much when you were fighting against the pain. I'm sorry I'm so far away, I couldn't see when you passed away and I couldn't help but to cry and pray. I missed you so much, and I love you. Let me send you away with a smile :) Rest In Peace my beloved grandmother..

2010/10/08

Violin Club :D

2010-10-05T11:15:00.004+07:00

I don't regret anything at all! :D

I don't regret wasting 12 kilograms of baggage for my cello. Some days ago, I was interviewed and auditioned to join the violin club. I got in, and yesterday.. out of the blue, I was asked to go to Dormitory B1, to have a club meeting. But then, suddenly the person in charge of the club, William, asked me to perform with them at October 30th, at one of the icon of Kaohsiung, the Kaohsiung Arena.

PERFORMANCE

*takes deep breath*

an hour, 16 songs, oh lao tian. Can I do it? :s

Aside of it, last October 1st, I went to National Science and Technology Museum to perform. I played cello, accompanying my seniors playing angklung :D

Ignore the oversized jeans.. it's too big for me now. And ignore my messy hair. I have not brushed. lol Oh, and that is Batik, the national heritage of Indonesia :D

first prize :D

2010-10-04T09:33:00.003+07:00

Just this morning, at my English class, I won the first prize of a small story telling contest :)

I retold the story of Jane Eyre, not whole, though. I didn't expect to be the first as I did NOT practice whole-heartedly at all.. you can go for a reality check, ask my boyfriend if he saw me practising lol. All I did was studying Chinese. But thank God, I was able to do it. It's not my best yet, and I really have to tell myself not to underestimate anything. Next time, I really have to prepare my best.

small gift from the teacher :D

English Magazine.. which is full of many hard words inside. Good for my major. I'm gonna go to bed with it today :D

It's like heaven's sent, I got a foot creme. After arriving at Kaohsiung, my foot got so dry and scalped.. idk what happened. And I got a buttermilk soap, it smells lovely :)

Along with a.. weird, but cute.. toothbrush and a mini toothpaste. YES GUISE, it's Burt's Bees. for freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

Now, doing conversations on the Chinese book over and over again ♥

i'm so tired.

2010-09-29T22:04:00.001+07:00

I don't get it why I should take economy class as bi shou this year :(

fine.

2010-09-27T10:30:00.000+07:00

You're out of my life, if that is what YOU want.

when what i need meets what i want

2010-09-22T21:48:00.004+07:00

I went to xinjuejiang today! And I admit, I bought a lot today. Yes, I need to.

It hurts me a lot because I need so many things, although I need to save, too.

SO! :D

What did I buy?

A dress-like coat, before was $1890 O__O~

A pair of sandals

A pair of flat shoes and I had to buy these since my old flat shoes were broken. BROKEN *dies* I was so in love with these. Bye-bye, flats T___T

My :3 face lol

吐司-chan :D

2010-09-22T01:43:00.005+07:00

Lovelies, please welcome..

吐司-chan! :D

I just bought it today and I LOVE it, like, LOVE. I bought it immediately when I saw this, was so cheeeap, about $6! As a food-shaped-stuffed-toys lover, how could I resist?

我的翻譯系的學姐給我一茤花~ My senior from Translation Department gave me a toy flower.. It's so cute! She gave it to me along with a note, saying:

Hi, cute Gaby :)
Welcome to Taiwan and also welcome to Translation big family!!!!!
Go for studying in another country is a difficult start, but I can do my best to help you. Smile is the best communication without speaking.

From ♥ Rb

She is one of the best girl ever! ;___; *cries of joy*

And some days ago before typhoon, I WAS RIGHT. I had to go to Hanlin. See? I got this cute mug for $3. YES YES YES, you are correct. Its shape is grand piano, and the holder is a musical note ♥ How 可愛~對不對?

This is some pictures of me camwhoring with my little beloved 吐司-chan ♥

Oh, and I'm all good after the typhoon.

I still am.

Typhoon Fanapi!

2010-09-22T01:21:00.002+07:00

click to view my school after the typhoon!

click to view where I've been helping on today :(

This is my first typhoon experience, ever. The sky was dark red, and the wind literally blew everything. I listened at its sound as I went to bed. There was no electricity for about 16 hours and no water, no food as well. We were trapped in the dorm with no way out as the B1 was flooding.

When finally there WAS electricity.. there was no internet. I was like, oh.my.goodness.. I survived though, but it was hard. 2 days without internet seemed like forever.

I helped the school's book store for some hours, it was indeed miserable. All the books were wet, very wet, and they were no longer usable. We threw them away, and there was a very big pile of books. I died a little inside. I heard the loss was about $1,100,000.. The books were crying. We tried to save some of them, but it didn't change anything. I saved one eng-chi dictionary and the laoban said I could take it back to dorm, but I still feel a bit guilty. No longer sell-able, though.

I hope the condition would get better tomorrow :)

2010-09-19T14:24:00.001+07:00

me in sunday morning..

2010-09-19T11:04:00.002+07:00

looks horrible.

Get Well Soon..

2010-09-18T20:13:00.000+07:00

Grandma.

翻譯系!同班同學~

2010-09-17T15:14:00.003+07:00

It's my first week. Oh, my God. It's been such a hectic and a tiring, exhausting week. I feel like going baaaack to holidays already. Recently, I've been studying like more than 3 hours a day. I rarely eat breakfast.. not healthy, I know. But I don't feel like eating every morning.. that's bad.

Nah, I get 14 classes this semester! 5 hours of level 6 TOEIC English Class, 2 hours of economy class, 3 hours of professional interpreting training class, 2 hours sport, 2 hours of business english class and 10 hours of chinese class. Hopefully, I can get a 小老師 from the Applied Chinese Department so I'm able to take another 10 hours of chinese class. 20hours of chinese a week! What a blessing :D

My 學姐 from 翻譯系 helped me a lot! Her name is Rb. She even came into my room to talk me one on one, about my studies, if I need some help, or anything. Oh, I got an apple.

Tomorrow, I'm going to Taichung to have a barbecue with my ISA, Letitia. She's so so cute and kind, inviting me to have a sleepover at her house in Taichung. I may not be aware, but it's wenzao's students. I trust them :) I'll try to take many pictures!

This is it for now, I run out of ideas of typing in English :( bad bad bad.

What do classes in chinese feel like?

2010-09-14T23:09:00.002+07:00

Death. Humiliation. Fear.

That sounds bad. Okay..

It does sound that horrible :'( I was acting tough but inside, I am crying. It's so hard. Why I entered this xi at the first place? This makes me doubt everything I had back then. True, my English is way better than them, but my Chinese is WAAAAAAAAAAAY worse than them. They ARE native speakers. And I? I have to sum up all those 18 years they have gone through in some months.

Okay... :'(

taiwan has pepero!

2010-09-12T16:05:00.002+07:00

Indonesia does.not.

(not so) dream mall

2010-09-11T19:57:00.003+07:00

Lovelies! Today is.. H-2 before term starts! I'm studying like O__O when I have nothing to do and all my friends were like, LET'S GO OUTSIDE, YOU. NEED. TO. GO. OUT.

SO! Today I went to Dream Mall, which is said, the biggest mall in Kaohsiung. Not really.. Indonesia has bigger malls. lol.

My senior took my friends and I there, quite far.. need to change to MRT and bus, but it was worth it.

Dream Mall has SO SO MANY shops, and what's amazing is the big ferris wheel on it! ON it! It's so expensive just to ride on it.. 150NT.. kidding me. Pfft. I saw many doraemons, cute things.. They were so tempting.

I did buy a cardigan from NET.. lol yea I love NET already. Hey hey I do really need a cardigan.. okay? Don't look at me like that.. I'm not a spender. *crosses fingers*

This is the cardigan I tried on :D.. and look at that skirt. LOOK. It's so cute.. 700NT.. do you think I should go there again to buy it?

Oh and this is my current outfit.. Oversized shirt. It feels like I'm wearing a boyfriend's shirt. Too bad I don't have one.. I wish I have. Both boyfriend and his shirt/jacket.

2010-09-11T01:55:00.002+07:00

So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.

-The Notebook

last weekend before term starts

2010-09-10T23:18:00.002+07:00

Today I went for a one day orientation in 文藻外語學院~

Okay.. I have to stop thinking how to write in chinese otherwise my followers wouldn't understand what I'm saying :s ..

It was a tiring, tiring, day. Translation and Interpreting class was nice, they were so shocked when they heard me talking in chinese.. I just came for 3 weeks and they said I'm so good already. hen qiang, they said.. I LOL'ed ~

Tom was so so kind, he translated almost everything for me, and Emma helped Tom translating for me too, sometimes when they speak chinese I can understand, I'm so happy :D

Oh, and Max banchang is so nice too, he said he will help me entering my personal info in the school's website, by phone, since I live in the dorm. TAMEN DOU HEN HAO A~

When the orientation was (finally) over, I met my team eleven mates outside Auditorium~ I miss you all guys :DD especially Rita, Tina, Winnie and Sunny.. lol why all girls? I don't intend on having ANY close relationships with a guy in Taiwan. And then, I, Tina, Winnie, Sunny, and Michelle went to Kaohsiung Arena to Daiso (I LOVE DAISO) and night market~ I share a big plate of.. idk, kwetiau with Winnie, when Tina came and fed me something.. OMG IT WAS CHOUTOUFU. Dui a, that stinky tofu. It smells so damn bad.. like omg. It tastes good.. but it stinks. .__________.

Night market was so crowded, so many cheap shoes, I'm going to go there again sometimes later..~ So sorry there's no pictures today! D:

Did I tell you? Tina and I got lost when we were about to go to Kaohsiung Arena. She was riding a motorcycle and I was on the backseat.. LOL we were just going around the same place for about 3 times.. and it was raining, not good huh. But finally she found the way and we got to Kaohsiung Arena safely~

And now here I am, blogging and doing random stuffs.. idk what to do, I'm going to go to Dream Mall tomorrow~ I hope he can talk to me soon ;)

2010-09-10T23:17:00.001+07:00

take my hand this time and don't you dare let go.

To all those distanced hearts

2010-09-08T23:34:00.001+07:00

Stay strong and never give up. Long distance relationships are something that everyone treasures or desires because of that rare quality that relationships seem to be lacking nowadays.

There are nights where you fall asleep, that other side empty and grazing your hand upon that empty side with that longing. There are even times where you are crying, lonely from seeing another couple pass you by or just craving that attention!

…

Why would anyone envy all this crap we go through?

We have someone we talk to constantly and make the most of each second we have. Many fight with each other just for one phone call.

Those moments where you can finally see each other is the greatest form of happiness that anyone can ask for or recieve. There are other couples who live next door to each other and never take advantage of such things.

Although you are far away, you are always connected by that special bond that very few have. You have trust, communication, patience and most of all…love. True love. There are people that will not walk down a block for their partner, you have someone that will go across the world just to see you for even a day.

Even though you’re far away, as long as the love is still there…I can wait forever just to see you smile again, even for a day because I have something that not many people experience in their lifetime. Someone who loves me unconditionally, for who I am. Someone willing to climb those mountains, tread through the storm and pay for ridiculously expensive plane tickets & hotel rooms just to see me.

I don’t think I will let that go, will you?

I'll hold you in my heart, till I can hold you in my arms.

2010-09-08T23:04:00.002+07:00

credit: awhitestraw.tumblr.com

Lotus Pond~ DOMO~

2010-09-08T19:07:00.005+07:00

This, is the Boarding of the Ducks~ 鴨子船 ^^ The duck is CUTE, idgaf what you said, it's cute. So there's like this amphibious car thing.. it can float on the water.. I was about to ride it but then my friends and 學姐 and I was O___O it costs so much. So we didn't go for it but ride another bus instead. See? I touched its lips :D

Dea, I, and Felita in front of Guan Gong 關公 He's so so big, like, so big. Under his feet there's like this fortune telling thing, and I got myself a piece of paper.. my future? But it's only 10NT! D:

Nah, I'll get my friend fanyi it for me. lol

Aand this is in the front of the.. tiger's mouth? lol Look at that fang.. The one in the yellow shirt is my 學姐~

I bought some talismans.. I even got it prayed at the temple nearby.lol I'm gonna send one for my popo, I hope she gets well soon..~Blue and yellow ones are for success in studies.. and the pink one is for health! :D

Have I told you lately that I LOVE DOMO? I can't stand it, I have to buy this. HAVE. TO. such a spender.. But for DOMO-KUN, I don't care ♥

2010-09-07T11:39:00.004+07:00

Hershey's Milk Chocolate with Almonds from a sister living at the church nearby :D

So yeah, yesterday I went to xinjuejiang to look around.. at the end I bought myself a nice sweatshirt and a short pants. Xinjuejiang rocks, food's so cheap, a tall ice cream, I mean, very tall ice cream like $1. My 學姐 brought us to the biggest NET in Kaohsiung, I was like OMG OMG CLOTHES :DD

It's been such a long time I shopped. I'm not a hypocrite, shopping is fun indeed. I was all -___- and my oily face made everything worse, but after I shopped I felt much more better. That just sounds like a bitch :s

So, this sweatshirt.. is so so so comfortable. They are selling warm clothes for cheap.. maybe because it's still summer :D

And, I got a shorts.. I was like, ah I'll get a L for myself.. I tried it on and I was like, WHY IS THIS SOO BIG.. I used to have XL. which means? YAY. I got smaller. I got a M now. Smaller waist ftw :D

School starts a week from now, and in 3 days I'll have an orientation for international students and the next day I'll have another orientation for 4 year college students. Sounds busy? I kinda love it.

2010-09-06T10:48:00.000+07:00

I have always loved this picture

#radiation wut is that

a hundred honest answers

2010-09-06T10:19:00.002+07:00

Oh, come on. I was so FUCKING BORED.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: water

2. Last phone call: tope

3. Last text message: tope (woii apa2an nih knapa kebetulan tope semua? segitu ansos nya kah gue?)

4. Last song you listened to: The Best You Never Had - Leona Lewis

5. Last time you cried: few days ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: yea

7. Been cheated on: yea

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: yea

9. Lost someone special: yea

10. Been depressed: yea

11. Been drunk and threw up: not....yet

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. orange

13. brown

14. black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend: yep

17. Laughed until you *nearly* cried: haha yeah

18. Met someone who changed you: mm yes :)

19. Found out who your true friends were: hope so.

20. Found out someone was talking about you: absolutely

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: yea..

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most of them

23. How many kids do you want to have: tbh,2 kids, big bro and lil sis ;)

24. Do you have any pets: late pet.

25. Do you want to change your name: haha no

26. What did you do for your last birthday: karaoke-ing with ks guyss :)

27. What time did you wake up today: 7:19

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: chat!

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Summer 2011

30. Last time you saw your Mother: August 20th, 6:00 AM

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: NONE!

32. What are you listening to right now: Telephone - Lady Gaga

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: hahah yeaa! heyy tom! happy birthday!

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: stupid people

35. Most visited webpage: twitter,facebook,email,blog.. i have no life i know

36. Whats your real name: Gabriela Maria Gondokusumo

37. Nicknames: Gaby

38. Relationship Status: single but unavailable (read: mentally taken) ;)

39. Zodiac sign?: Leo

40. Male or female?: female

41. Elementary?: Santa Ursula BSD

42. Middle School?: Santa Ursula BSD

43. High school/college?: Santa Ursula BSD SHS and Wenzao Ursuline College of Languages.

44. Hair colour: dark brown

45. Long or short: long :)

46. Height: 157

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yea

48: What do you like about yourself?: eyes and lips ;)

49. Piercings: 2, in the ears

50. Tattoos: the only tattoo I've ever made is a temporary one. lol

51. Righty or lefty: rightyy

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: 2 years old or less

53. First piercing: 1 year old

54. First best friend: Cindy :)

55. First sport you joined: Swimming

56. First vacation: the one i can recall is to hong kong.

58. First pair of trainers: 4th grade i think.

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating: nothing

60. Drinking: nothing

61. Doing: typing

62. Listening to: Take a Bow - Rihanna

63. Waiting on: people to mention me at twitter

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: y/n?

65. Get Married?: yeah :)

66. Career?: linguist, interpreter, mum

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: doesn't matter

68. Hugs or kisses: hugs

69. Shorter or taller: taller

70. Older or Younger: older

71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms

73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: neither

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: why would I?

77. Drank hard liquor: once

78. Lost glasses/contacts: not wearing glasses :)

79. Sex on first date: never

80. Broken someone's heart: yeah

82. Been arrested: nah.. no

83. Turned someone down: yeah :(

84. Cried when someone died: yea

85. Fallen for a friend?: yea

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: yeah

87. Miracles: affirmatiiive :3

88. Love at first sight: yeah

89. Heaven: yups

90. Santa Claus: yeahh :)

91. Kiss on the first date: haha yeah

92. Angels: yeah :)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no

95. Did you sing today?: mmm :)

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: y/n?

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 2 months before i go to taiwan

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relieve it, what would it be?: christmas

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: no :)

100. Posting this as 100 truths?: yessir.

I come here to..

2010-09-06T01:37:00.002+07:00

STUDY.

So fuck you. I'm gonna do it my way, call me weird or anti-social but I don't get what "peer pressure" is.

We'll see who's gonna laugh at the very end.

Brisbane Park..sounds ironic

2010-09-04T10:07:00.003+07:00

Brisbane Park with Dea and Felita :D

Yesterday, My 學姐 took me somewhere to eat one of Taiwan's delicacies, the snow ice :D

Too bad I forgot to take a pic of it. We walked quite far and passed the Brisbane Park on our way. It was just a simple park, but once the sun sets, the bridge will light up and that is, beautiful. I took a pic there, see :D

The snow ice was so so big, and so cheap, 45NT, about $1.4 ~ eat that people.

Kinda regret having one bowl all by myself, my head felt dizzy and sounding because it's too sweet and cold @__@

I will try the strawberry syrup one tomorrow.. keke

There's so many dogs in Taiwan, and the ones people took to Brisbane Park are so so cute :3 Again, too bad I don't have any decent camera D: I can't wait to buy one T___T

That's it for today people, don't feel like blogging since I have to move to other room -__-.. hen mafan

你好高雄!

2010-09-03T20:31:00.004+07:00

Taken at Hong Kong International Airport, these are each one of my friends’ shoes. We went to Kaohsiung, Taiwan to study at Wenzao Ursuline College of Languages.

Taiwan is awesome, though the summer is killing me literally.. Food is great, I mean, GREAT. Costs like $2 every meal, and such a big portion for me to eat. I’ve got many 學長 and 學姐 to help us buying everything to settle down here, and so far I’ve been xiguan already.. Though I miss my friends back then in Indonesia. Especially, I left someone so special way back there. I left all the chances and possibilities in Indonesia. For something I don’t even know.

Though my 學長 and 學姐 have been so so so nice, they accompany me almost every lunch and even take me to buy a laptop, and teach us Chinese, I still miss all those Indonesian faces. Never knew I’d miss Indonesia. Well, not really, but I miss the foods already! I won’t be home for years, and I miss playing with my brothers and just going out with mum or dad for a drive. I miss talking to my popo, too.

It’s so hard actually to live here, alone, and I can only understand what they’re talking about when they speak slowly. I’m here, alone, I realized that when I have to wash my own laundry and tidy up everything, all by myself. I can’t just wait for my friends. Have. To. Do. Everything. Alone.

And when I got here, I was told that my major here is one of the most difficult ones for 外國人. Only one 學姐 had this major, and she’s very very hard-working. Which means? I have to work 4 times harder than all my friends. It is so so hard to me, I mean, pressure.

I left my heart over there, miles away.

Everynight has been so lovely, thank you. Thank you. For giving me strength. You’ll always be in my heart, that I can promise.

Now, I’ll be living my life in Taiwan, working my ass off, trying to live independently. I can do nothing but to hope, that you will, always want to talk to me.